Sunday, April 27, 2008

i just want to be happy

im going crazy...
omigawd... i think im going crazy from the mad studying...

i study until i cannot stand already...
decided to take a break...
thank gawd i take a break and never continue studying...
i think i'll go more crazy if i continue to study...
taking a break is good...
yeah...
studying one whole day is crazy...

thinking about the stress...
im not sure if i can go through the whole week or not...
first time i feel so stress till like this...
guess the pressure is there...
screw exams...

stress till i cannot stand staying at home...
i ask my mother to bring me out...
at that time, all i wanted is to be away from the house, away from the books...
thats all.

i need to overcome the stress. i need all the strength i can get. all of it to continue standing straight. i just want to be happy.

Posted by eMiLy at 18:36 | | Comments

Friday, April 25, 2008

i need the motivation

exam, exam, exam!!!
screw the fella who started exam...

now, i need to study, study, study...
and then i can enjoy, enjoy, enjoy...
aiyak, cannot think about enjoying yet...
exam havent start already think about it...
cannot.

emily doesnt like exams.
i wonder who likes it anyway.

starting on monday...
ending on friday...
i have started studying...
but i cant stand studying info tech, mass media and society...
which reminds me why did i take that subject in the first place...
the textbook is soooo long-winded...
and its boring...
so history like...

among the 5 subjects im taking this semester...
this subject is the only subject im currently worried...
my current standing for this subject is so bad...
very rocky...
im screwed...

i once hoped for a miracle and i am still hoping for one. if it happens, it would probably be one of the best moments i have in life.

Posted by eMiLy at 23:48 | | Comments

Sunday, April 20, 2008

i hope for the better

yAy!!!
im finally done with the love hotel poster...
now, im praying and hoping so much that the poster wont get questioned by the lecturer tomorrow...
if there's no questions, means my poster pass his requirements...
so now, im really really hoping that it will pass when i show him tomorrow...
ahhhh... scared la... you will never know what will happen...
that lecturer is unpredictable... nobody knows what he is thinking...

i need to start studying...
there's tooo many chapters for me to revise...
and im trying not to study last minute again...
im aiming for the best result i can get...
whatever it is... at least ive tried...

i have pretty pretty jelly to eat...
bought it from the jelly bakery shop...
they have one shop in Ikano...
but just realize they actually have a shop nearby the house...
i think the shop has been there for quite some time just that we didnt realize it...
so mummy and i decided to go and look out for the shop...
we found and we went home with pretty pretty jelly...
its so pretty till i didnt want to eat it...
so sayang la...

i hope history doesnt repeat. i wont avoid and wont even try avoiding. i shall face it bravely and handle it properly this time. if it ever happens.

Posted by eMiLy at 23:09 | | Comments

Saturday, April 19, 2008

its making me wonder

im bored...
tv is boring...
i mean when it comes to research...
researching about tv is boring...
all i know is to watch tv...
why bother researching about it?...
ask my lecturer la...

its such a boring topic la...
especially when you seem to be getting the same and the same information all the time...
its so boring..

i shall think more about my love hotel poster...
the final assignment for my design class...
i went to see how the other tutorial groups did today...
theirs were so nice...
making me worried about mine...
luckily i have the weekends to make changes...
since i only need to pass up on monday...

love hotel reminds me that love can be very painful. what is love? how could it hurts? i wonder.

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Friday, April 18, 2008

i want a time machine

can time pass any faster?...
just till im done with the final exam...

i seriously cant wait till the exam is over...
thats when the holiday comes in...
which is something im die-ing for at the moment...

another week of classes and its exam...
i can finally call this semester an end after i finish answering my last paper on the 2nd of May...
that reminds me that i havent start studying yet...
but i have an assignment and a presentation to complete before i can fully focus on studying for the exam...

and please remind me not to take 5 subjects again during long semesters...
its so scary and stressful that im afraid to experience it again...

oh oh oh...
the lift at KPD Block E is freaking scary...
once again something that scare the hell out of me happen today...
not to forgot what happened during one of the mondays...
its freaky...
my heart is very weak to take all this...
haha...

im afraid its happening again. but this time im kinda happy with it. i think im kinda falling for it instead of trying to do anything to it.i hope i can stay this way.

Posted by eMiLy at 23:13 | | Comments

Saturday, April 12, 2008

i need more time

im trying to do my intercultural journal...
but i have no idea how to do it...
i dont know what the lecturer wants...
and its due on tuesday...
im trying to finish it early and quick...
but i really dont know how to do...
30% of my final marks...
i dont dare to think whats gonna happen...

come to think of it...
i dont remember having the lecturer explaining what he wants and how to do...
or he did?...
teruk lah...

oh... my design class FINAL assignment is to design a poster...
note the capital letters...
yes its the last one...
well, anybody here knows how to do poster?...
an advertisement poster...
or knows anyone who does it?...
i probably need some help...
maybe some guidance in doing it?...
the lecturer provide all the information needed to be inserted already...
just need to design it and present...
3 drafts, 1 final copy, and a presentation...
but everything have to be hand-done...

omg!!!...
that reminds me of my outdated visual diary...
crap!

Posted by eMiLy at 23:37 | | Comments

Sunday, April 06, 2008

i want it more than i need it

in reply to my previous entry...
i manage to pass up my art work on time...
my podcast and resilience essay were done and handed in on time also...
the presentation went on well...
but i must say the test was not done so well...

got back my marks for my resilience essay already... im quite satisfied with the result despite doing it at the very last minute...
and i heard we could check the presentation marks already but i have yet to check it...
im glad i survived that week eventhough i encountered some unlucky events...

my exam docket come out already...
same goes to the exam timetable...
lucky me... my subjects are spreaded properly...
i have one paper a day...
lucky lucky...
but i kesian those people who got 3 papers in a day...
i wonder how are they gonna cramp in 3 different subjects for that day?...

my brother has a new toy...
he bought xbox 360 elite version...
but im not excited...
i cant find any game to play...
sad rite?...

talking about gadgets...
im thinking of getting a psp...
what you think?...
but im actually in the middle of deciding which one i should get...
should i get a psp?...
or should i get a nintendo ds lite?...
or should i just forget about it and upgrade my ipod video to an ipod touch instead?...
OR OR OR...
should i save up and get myself a macbook?...
haha... emily suddenly is interested in macbook...
but i kinda dont feel like asking the daddy to get me one...
since he got me my current laptop...
and it is still working perfectly...
but but but...
aiyoh... so many but...
actually all of those are WANTS and not NEEDS...
and i realize i have more WANTS than NEEDS in my mind now...

how?

emily has completed the first piece of art for assignment 4...
3 more to go... due on thursday...
and emily is skipping 8am class tomorrow...
yAy!!!

Posted by eMiLy at 23:47 | | Comments