. : : behind the hidden spot : : .

i dont feel safe

2008-08-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

today is one of the day i would never want it to happen again...
nor remember it...
it brings back all the bad experience ive encountered...
what the heck la...
of all days it just has to happen today...
what more it happen right infront of my eyes...
i just hope those people can vanish from this world...

two indian man on a motorcycle...
appear in front of the empty neighbor's house and decided to steal their gate...
yes the house front gate...
the previous neighbor shifted out ages ago and the new one have yet to shift in...
however, the two indian man only manage to steal one side of the gate...
meaning the other half is still here...
they actually went off with one side of the gate and came back for the other side...
but when they came back, things started to get ugly and they went off...
im sure they will return for the other half one day...

the whole scene was so scary...
i was shivering the whole time...
really really scared...
my daddy was at home with me...
but it didnt really help though...
what my daddy did during the whole scene didnt help...
im still scared till now...

apparently a few houses away from my house got its gate stolen too...
not today but a few weeks back...
i guess people are targeting house gates now...

at this moment...
i dont want to be mean...
but if those two fella come back...
i just hope they take the gate and get lost...
and not come back anymore...
like forever...

i hate having this unsafe feeling back in me...
it makes me worried all the time...
and i hate hate hate motorcycles...
every bad experience i have has motorcycles in it...

i hope all this crimes never exist...
i hope all those people have something better to do than this...
i hope i will feel safe again one day...
and i hope i will be brave enough to face the outside world again...

i will survive

2008-08-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

the date today is 20 august 2008...
whats so special about this date?...
it has 2008 twice...
20082008...
coincidence huh...
well last year we have 20072007 too...
its as if the year has a one-day twin member...

oh did i say that my subjects this semester sound so scary...
i think it is...
and i almost lost my way in wisma help yesterday...
all my classes will be in that building...
i dont know where the classrooms are...
better get myself familiar with that place fast...
i dont want to get lost in such a big building...

i shall have fun

2008-08-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

18th august 2008.
the start of a new semester.

ive registered for four subjects.
four shall be my limit this time i guess.
unless i decide to change my mind.
not gonna think about anything else except to enjoy myself.

for this semester, i hope kannan wont be giving us a hard time.
and also the new programme director.

i dont know

2008-08-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

i dont know whether to laugh or to cry.
i dont know whats currently happening.
i dont know why is everything really going against me.
i dont know why all this is happening to me and during this time.

can someone tell me why.

my worries are really starting to be a burden.
and im really scared that all of it is really going to happen.

it was better at the start, but why now its starting to go the other way round instead?

i dont want to miss out

2008-08-08T23:18:00.003+08:00

it's 080808
happy 080808

i dont want to miss out blogging on this date.
i also want to join in the fun.
it has so many eight...

beijing olympics open today...
and the opening ceremony is so beautiful...

im scared

2008-07-17T21:03:00.003+08:00

im scared...
scared of everything...
im scared of everything that comes into my mind...

everything is like going towards the opposite way...
not going the way i wanted...
its the opposite of what im hoping for...

i have bad feelings for what im going to score for my marketing paper...
after scoring badly for my consumer behavior paper...
my level of confidence for marketing totally went down the drain...
i have the feeling that i screwed up my paper...
eventhough i said i was happily answering the paper...
answering it happily doesnt mean that i will score high...
who knows maybe the happy answers doesnt meet the requirement...
shit la... i really think i did it wrongly already...
i assume the result is out already...
shit shit shit...

im screwed la...
that day i was thinking about my future...
about life after graduation...
i even asked my daddy how...
i asked my daddy what if i really did very bad for my degree and didnt meet the requirements for any job out there...
ahhh... all this stuff is starting to scare me...
im.scared.till.i.dont.know.what.to.do.

i want to stay in my comfort zone only, can?

im crushed

2008-07-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

im officially on holiday now...
until dont know when...

the exam today went well...
no cursing, no injuries, no freezing...
was happily answering my paper...

i finish my paper happily...
but i didnt really go home happily...
found out my results for my paper yesterday...
my lecturer finished marking the paper already and he release our results...
i was so very very disappointed with my results...
very disappointed with the marks i got for my final exam...
i didnt expect to get such a mark...
ahhh... i feel like crying...
seriously speaking i didnt expect to score so low...
i never set my expectation that high either...

ahh... no mood already... byebye.

i curse roadblocks

2008-07-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

whoa... sudah lama berhabuk already...

sorry. i was too busy with college and classes and other stuff...
come to think of it, classes finish already and the semester has come to an end already...
it finals again and im done with one paper...
another one more paper tomorrow and im done for the semester...

the fact that it will be an open book paper tomorrow...
im not really studying...
i know i should study eventhough it is open book...
but i dont know why i just dont have the mood to study...
more to like dont have the stress and panic mood to make me study...

my paper was suppose to be at 8 this morning...
purposely leave the house an hour before to avoid the crazy traffic...
and to make sure i reach early for the exam...
but who knows the traffic today was freaking crazy that i curse all the way to college...
all those crazy roadblocks early in the morning...
cause me to reach late...
it usually takes me about half and hour to reach college...
but today it takes me an hour to reach...

reach college about 8.05 thinking that im already late...
i rush to the exam hall and nearly sprain my ankle...
nearly...
i was panicking at that time...
mana tahu when i reach the exam place everybody is still waiting outside...
everybody havent go in yet...
and i found out they delay the exam abit to 8.15...
apparently all the 8am papers started later...
some say they purposely put it later abit because of the traffic jams...
whatever is it thank gawd i wasnt late...
and lucky i never sprained my ankle...
if i did i probably might be cursing more...

luck wasnt totally on my side...
i happen to be sitting right under the aircond during my exam...
crazy... i dont even know why i chose to sit there...
i was freezing throughout my exam...
and i forgot to bring my jacket...
of all days...

lucky my paper tomorrow is not at 8am...
anyway...
marketing oh marketing...
please dont give me a hard time answering you tomorrow...
pls pls pls.

i wonder whats happening

2008-06-02T22:52:00.005+08:00

just a short update...
i should be studying now instead...

i watched 10 episodes of Forensic Heroes II on astro...
never subscribe the show but the channel was available for me to watch...
so i watch la...
astro open the channel, i watch lorr...
why waste it right...
spend the whole afternoon in front of the tv trying to catch every episode...
was so so so interesting till i didnt bother to layan my marketing book...
and i just catch episode 11 just now...
haha...
not sure if i could still gain access to the channel tomorrow...
hopefully can la...

oh guess what...
i hurt my leg again...
my foot... not my ankle...
i think i twisted it...
not sure dont know...
i only know it hurts so bad...
now i cant walk properly...
every step hurts...
i wonder how am i going to walk to the college's library tomorrow...
need to renew the book i borrowed...
ahdui... so susah...
better ask the daddy to massage my foot...

i better get back to my book...
marketing test tomorrow...

i need a break

2008-05-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

its over! its finally over!!!
the time i've been waiting finally came...
finally the end of the 4th semester (2nd year 1st semester)...
had so much ups and downs and its finally ending today...

i have to say the exam wasnt a smooth ride...
it is probably the hardest set of paper ive set for...
it was hard...
i think the paper was meant to kill you and the grades...

i have problem answering every paper except for one...
can say out of 4 paper (no exam for design), im only satisfied with 1 of it...
how bad could it be...
i hope the result wont turn out as bad as im thinking now...
i hope the result will be as good as it should be...
argh... i just hope the result will be acceptable and not freaking bad...

apparently, i could find out what i get for 2 of my subject...
but i dont want to...
i scared i will be disappointed...
i actually set a very high target for my results this semester...
but i dont think i would be able to achieve it...
i think its impossible now after answering the papers...
im freaking disappointed with myself la...

since im officially on holiday already...
somebody please bring me out...
call me out or whatever...
i really need to enjoy as much as i could...
i really need a break.

i dont want to ask for it again. i dont want it to happen again. when dreams turn to nightmare. i dont want it anymore. i dont want.

i just want to be happy

2008-04-27T18:36:00.003+08:00

im going crazy...
omigawd... i think im going crazy from the mad studying...

i study until i cannot stand already...
decided to take a break...
thank gawd i take a break and never continue studying...
i think i'll go more crazy if i continue to study...
taking a break is good...
yeah...
studying one whole day is crazy...

thinking about the stress...
im not sure if i can go through the whole week or not...
first time i feel so stress till like this...
guess the pressure is there...
screw exams...

stress till i cannot stand staying at home...
i ask my mother to bring me out...
at that time, all i wanted is to be away from the house, away from the books...
thats all.

i need to overcome the stress. i need all the strength i can get. all of it to continue standing straight. i just want to be happy.

i need the motivation

2008-04-25T23:48:00.003+08:00

exam, exam, exam!!!
screw the fella who started exam...

now, i need to study, study, study...
and then i can enjoy, enjoy, enjoy...
aiyak, cannot think about enjoying yet...
exam havent start already think about it...
cannot.

emily doesnt like exams.
i wonder who likes it anyway.

starting on monday...
ending on friday...
i have started studying...
but i cant stand studying info tech, mass media and society...
which reminds me why did i take that subject in the first place...
the textbook is soooo long-winded...
and its boring...
so history like...

among the 5 subjects im taking this semester...
this subject is the only subject im currently worried...
my current standing for this subject is so bad...
very rocky...
im screwed...

i once hoped for a miracle and i am still hoping for one. if it happens, it would probably be one of the best moments i have in life.

i hope for the better

2008-04-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

yAy!!!
im finally done with the love hotel poster...
now, im praying and hoping so much that the poster wont get questioned by the lecturer tomorrow...
if there's no questions, means my poster pass his requirements...
so now, im really really hoping that it will pass when i show him tomorrow...
ahhhh... scared la... you will never know what will happen...
that lecturer is unpredictable... nobody knows what he is thinking...

i need to start studying...
there's tooo many chapters for me to revise...
and im trying not to study last minute again...
im aiming for the best result i can get...
whatever it is... at least ive tried...

i have pretty pretty jelly to eat...
bought it from the jelly bakery shop...
they have one shop in Ikano...
but just realize they actually have a shop nearby the house...
i think the shop has been there for quite some time just that we didnt realize it...
so mummy and i decided to go and look out for the shop...
we found and we went home with pretty pretty jelly...
its so pretty till i didnt want to eat it...
so sayang la...

i hope history doesnt repeat. i wont avoid and wont even try avoiding. i shall face it bravely and handle it properly this time. if it ever happens.

its making me wonder

2008-04-19T01:05:00.003+08:00

im bored...
tv is boring...
i mean when it comes to research...
researching about tv is boring...
all i know is to watch tv...
why bother researching about it?...
ask my lecturer la...

its such a boring topic la...
especially when you seem to be getting the same and the same information all the time...
its so boring..

i shall think more about my love hotel poster...
the final assignment for my design class...
i went to see how the other tutorial groups did today...
theirs were so nice...
making me worried about mine...
luckily i have the weekends to make changes...
since i only need to pass up on monday...

love hotel reminds me that love can be very painful. what is love? how could it hurts? i wonder.

i want a time machine

2008-04-18T23:13:00.003+08:00

can time pass any faster?...
just till im done with the final exam...

i seriously cant wait till the exam is over...
thats when the holiday comes in...
which is something im die-ing for at the moment...

another week of classes and its exam...
i can finally call this semester an end after i finish answering my last paper on the 2nd of May...
that reminds me that i havent start studying yet...
but i have an assignment and a presentation to complete before i can fully focus on studying for the exam...

and please remind me not to take 5 subjects again during long semesters...
its so scary and stressful that im afraid to experience it again...

oh oh oh...
the lift at KPD Block E is freaking scary...
once again something that scare the hell out of me happen today...
not to forgot what happened during one of the mondays...
its freaky...
my heart is very weak to take all this...
haha...

im afraid its happening again. but this time im kinda happy with it. i think im kinda falling for it instead of trying to do anything to it.i hope i can stay this way.

i need more time

2008-04-12T23:37:00.001+08:00

im trying to do my intercultural journal...
but i have no idea how to do it...
i dont know what the lecturer wants...
and its due on tuesday...
im trying to finish it early and quick...
but i really dont know how to do...
30% of my final marks...
i dont dare to think whats gonna happen...

come to think of it...
i dont remember having the lecturer explaining what he wants and how to do...
or he did?...
teruk lah...

oh... my design class FINAL assignment is to design a poster...
note the capital letters...
yes its the last one...
well, anybody here knows how to do poster?...
an advertisement poster...
or knows anyone who does it?...
i probably need some help...
maybe some guidance in doing it?...
the lecturer provide all the information needed to be inserted already...
just need to design it and present...
3 drafts, 1 final copy, and a presentation...
but everything have to be hand-done...

omg!!!...
that reminds me of my outdated visual diary...
crap!

i want it more than i need it

2008-04-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

in reply to my previous entry...
i manage to pass up my art work on time...
my podcast and resilience essay were done and handed in on time also...
the presentation went on well...
but i must say the test was not done so well...

got back my marks for my resilience essay already... im quite satisfied with the result despite doing it at the very last minute...
and i heard we could check the presentation marks already but i have yet to check it...
im glad i survived that week eventhough i encountered some unlucky events...

my exam docket come out already...
same goes to the exam timetable...
lucky me... my subjects are spreaded properly...
i have one paper a day...
lucky lucky...
but i kesian those people who got 3 papers in a day...
i wonder how are they gonna cramp in 3 different subjects for that day?...

my brother has a new toy...
he bought xbox 360 elite version...
but im not excited...
i cant find any game to play...
sad rite?...

talking about gadgets...
im thinking of getting a psp...
what you think?...
but im actually in the middle of deciding which one i should get...
should i get a psp?...
or should i get a nintendo ds lite?...
or should i just forget about it and upgrade my ipod video to an ipod touch instead?...
OR OR OR...
should i save up and get myself a macbook?...
haha... emily suddenly is interested in macbook...
but i kinda dont feel like asking the daddy to get me one...
since he got me my current laptop...
and it is still working perfectly...
but but but...
aiyoh... so many but...
actually all of those are WANTS and not NEEDS...
and i realize i have more WANTS than NEEDS in my mind now...

how?

emily has completed the first piece of art for assignment 4...
3 more to go... due on thursday...
and emily is skipping 8am class tomorrow...
yAy!!!

im afraid i cant take it

2008-03-21T01:43:00.002+08:00

i feel like crying...
everything seems to be going against me...
and this is not the correct time to happen...

im starting to feel the stress...
stress from all the assignments...
i have something due everyday next week...
seriously, im very scared...
i scared i cannot tahan the stress i have to face next week...

monday, i have the stupid design "art" work to pass up...
tuesday, i have that irritating radio podcast and resilience essay due...
wednesday, i have a presentation...
thursday, i have a darn test to answer...
and friday, i can finally scream out loud and get some fresh air...

seriously,
i rather deal with starch and stick pieces of newspaper on the balloon than having to some stupid collage for design...
i rather do more public speaking presentation than having to do the podcast...
i think im going crazy...
soon...

save my life...
im not as strong as you think i am...
i think i really need the pair of wings to protect me...

on another note,
i really enjoy myself yesterday during the easter event we, marcomm student, organize...
it was fun working with the deco and design team...
and the event was a success...
all our hard work paid off...
yAy!!!

complain partner i need

2008-03-15T01:09:00.003+08:00

i feel like complaining...
actually i have lots of stuff to complain about...
i dont know why but i just have alot...
but i dont know who to complain all this to...

i choose not to write my dissatisfaction on my blog this time...
but if i choose not to write it out here, where else can i express it?...

if i were to take my teddy bears as my victim, they cant answer me...
i'll be freaking out if my teddy bears can talk...

if i were to tell everything to the kawan,
i scared i'll probably put them to sleep...
or maybe make them more blur...
or maybe they will just pretend to listen...
or probably they wont even understand it...

if i were to complain it to my daddy or mummy,
i dont know what were happen...
i dont really discuss this stuff to the brother...

argh...
so the membencikan when im in this condition...

now i hope i have an elder sister...
it might help me alot...

im making big big "balloon" eggs tomorrow...
with the college friends...
for an upcoming event...

for the moment

2008-03-10T22:06:00.004+08:00

im back to write something here...
i finally have some time off from the hectic schedule...
yea... im kinda free for this whole week
no tests... no assignments due...
thank gawd...
but will be quite busy after this week...
till the end of march... i think...

so many things has happen and is happening lately...
its so many till i cant keep track of it...

oh... i have a new hair colour...
my hair used to be dark brown...
the colour that makes people think my house water is rusty water...
i still remember that was the first time i dye my hair...
and that was one of the remark i got...
i can still remember...

the thought of dyeing my hair wasnt in my mind...
when i visited the saloon, my main intention was just to trim my hair...
yeap... my hair is still long...
until my mum asked me if i want to dye my hair also...
my mum offer of course i want la...
i then choose what colour i want...
i have actually been wanting to try red colour...
but me dont dare to dye the whole head red...
and i think i have been seeing tooo many red heads already...
so i settle for some colour that is not so loud...
i settled for reddish brown...
and im very much happy with the end result...
my mum was happy too...
she prefer my current hair colour compared to the old one...

i have so many things in mind...
but those things are so near yet so far...
i have no choice but to wait...
wait for a day when i can finally have it...

struggling with it

2008-02-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

yAy!!
the term break is finally here...
10 days...

but dont think i can fully enjoy it...
with the amount of assignments lining up for me to complete it...
and the due dates is after the holiday...
how to not think about it and just enjoy the whole 10 days of holiday...
what more if one of the assignments is all about sketching...

if you're wondering what does sketching gotta do with communication...
dont ask me...
me myself is still trying to find the relation to it...
one of the subjects im taking this semester is intro to design...
at first i thought the subject will be about learning how to use adobe and whatever design methods using the computer...
but when i attended the first lecturer, the subject turn out to be something like an art class...
it is memang an art class...
cause all i have learn in that class until today is drawing lines, curves, triangle, circle and squares...
i thought the moment i'm done with form 3 i get to leave all those art blocks behind and not see it anymore...
but who knows now i have to deal with drawing blocks again...
argh... i dont like to draw... art and drawing is not my thing...
what more if i have to follow so many rules when drawing...
oh i have no choice but to take the subject since it is one of the core subjects for me...
aaaaa... any art or architecture student willing to help me with all the drawings?...
errr... i have around 30++ drawings pending and need to be submitted after the holiday...
everything have to be produced manually and no computer aided designs are allowed...
stressnya...

leave that aside...
the more i think about it, the more i feel like crying...
reminds me of when i felt so down after the business admin quiz on wednesday...
apparently, the lecturer prepared 5 different sets of question paper and i got one of the hardest set...
i was kinda struggling trying to answer the questions...
it was hard la...
im not the only one who said it...
other classmates who have the same set of questions as me also say it was hard...

ok lerr...
i've got a replacement class to attend tomorrow...
errr later...
it's already 1am plus...
better get some sleep...

i need the energy to continue

2008-01-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

its only the first week of classes and im already looking forward to the holidays...

im taking 5 subjects this semester...
and i have classes everyday...
i dont think it will be as relaxing as my previous semesters...
the assignments itself is scaring me...
im already starting to feel the stress...

im exhausted...
tired...
i dont have the energy to do anything now...
and im wondering why my weekends is moving faster than the weekdays...
i hope it was the other way round...

i remember i got more to type about...
but im really tired...
and i guess its better if i go to bed now...

how i hope the semester has not started and im still on holiday...

im weak again

2008-01-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

class starting tomorrow...
emily is sick...
great...
but she can still go out...
is just that while walking halfway she suddenly felt her head so heavy...
till she has no mood to continue walking...

emily hopes she will feel better tomorrow and not worst...
and she hopes her timetable will be as planned and no problems will occur...
she also hopes that "wonderful" lecturer wouldnt give her a hard time again this semester...
if everything goes smoothly, emily promises to study harder and procrastinate less...
if everything doesnt goes smoothly, emily hopes it doesnt pull down her semangat to study harder and procrastinate more this semester...

is emily asking toooo much?
oh and emily is officially a 2nd year uni student...
stressnya...

the meaning behind it

2008-01-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

school is starting next week... err i mean college...
yeah my class is starting next week...
so fast my holiday is coming to an end already...
this few days is more about decide-on-your-subjects-quick...
and it’s so not fun…

"Ibaboh/Ee Babo (This Fool)" and "Friend" have been playing on my playlist since i got the song...
i like it...
after getting the translation of the song, I like it even more...
in case you're wondering, those songs are korean...
sung by Wonder Girls...
before this, the only song i know from them is "Tell Me"...
not until i happen to be catching Music Bank on KBS channel that day...
this time i heard "This Fool"...
and that started the search for the whole album...
downloaded it and both the song is currently among my favourites...

i like the meaning behind those two song...
one is about both the guy and girl liking each other and the girl is waiting for the guy to express his feelings to her...
the other one is about the girl liking the guy but couldnt confess to him because the guy is just taking her as a friend...

the chinese new year mood seem to have started already...
the tv have been playing chinese new year songs several times in a day...
oh oh... and prosperity burger and the curly fries are back too...

yay!...
i get to bake cookies too...
for chinese new year...

chinese new year is about a month away...
enjoy preparing for it people!!...

a brand new year

2008-01-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

hello hello...

its the first day of a brand new year...

how did you usher in the new year?...
it should have been fun i guess...

oh oh...
and how was your first day of 2008?...
mine was fun...
i spend my day shopping with the family...

anyway...
before i forget...
Happy New Year!!!

the full stop for 2007

2007-12-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

the last one for year 2007.

2007 isnt really a great year for me...
i've gone through alot this year...
all the ups and downs in life i supposed...
pretty much more downs than ups for me...

however...
its time to wrap up 2007...
the year of pig...
and welcome 2008...
errr.... the year of mouse, right?... or is it rat?...

hope 2008 will be a better year...
much better than what im hoping for...
i really hope it will be so much better...
lets hope for it...

Goodbye 2007... Hello 2008!...

a get-together before the year end

2007-12-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

i just came home from dinner with the relatives...

dinner to mark the coming year i supposed...

or probably to mark the end of year 2007...

im not very sure...

anyway...

dinner was at victoria station at damansara...

food was great...

the relatives were entertaining...

each with different stories...

so fun i get to hear stories...

overall i actually did enjoy myself...

and guess who i saw there...

malaysia's men singles badminton player...

wondering which one?...

...

this one...

lee chong wei...

no biggie deal though...

but it would be fun if someone went crazy and scream...

"OMG ITS LEE CHONG WEI!!!"

haha...

unfortunately nobody did...

imagine if it really happen...

i probably get to watch something...

hehe...

its Christmas

2007-12-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

first of all,
Merry Christmas, people!!

i can hear fireworks from my house...
loud bang of noises...
wonder where is it coming from...
i want to play also...

anyway...
hows your Christmas celebration going?
enjoy exchanging presents?

oh well...
hope you get lotsa presents and enjoy Christmas too...
and perhaps having Santa dropping by your place with presents...
haha...

once again...
Merry Christmas!!

for once i hope it was a lie

2007-12-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

today probably isnt my day...

i cried nearly the whole day...
my tears keep flowing...
afraid of the telephone...
i got scared everytime the phone rings...
i dont have any problem with the phone...
its just that all the incoming calls today aint any good news...
it was bad news...
news that i never wanted to hear...
news that involve my close relative...
news that is tooo sudden...
i was scared and sad that i kept crying on and on...
hoping that it was just lies...

but it happen to be the truth.

it went away just like that

2007-12-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

argh...
im so stupid...
so so so freaking stupid...
i cant believe i am so stupid...
i cant believe i can be so stupid...

aaaaaaaaaa...
i feel like crying...

shouldnt have think back...
i regret thinking about it when it is done...

i just throw 20% of my marks down the drain...
how can i not think of the meaning behind the question...
how can i be so careless...
why didnt i read the question properly...
why didnt i think back what have been thought...
WHY?????...

now i hope i didnt do badly in the other question...
and hope for some marks from the 20% question...

hope my overall marks wont be badly affected...
i love you media writing...
dont treat me do bad ok...

argh... i sound so desperate...
but the question is suppose to be easy...
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
i dont want to think already...
the more i think of it the more i am scared...

better study and be prepared for tomorrow's paper...
hopefully i dont throw down a big amount of marks in the drain again...

i am hoping for a miracle...
at this moment of time i really hope miracle do exist...
i really hope there are miracles...

i need a miracle.

the final one for the year

2007-12-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

my first year in university is ending soon... cant believe a year past so fast... and the year is ending soon too...

i will be sitting for my final exam tomorrow... two papers... one is tomorrow and another paper on the following day... cant wait till it end... im soooo not in the mood for final exam... i wonder why... no mood for studying... what im thinking now is just having fun... argh... cannot cannot... i need to study... i need to motivate myself to study... must study!!

guess i better get back to my books... my super interesting text books...

wish me luck...

my 19th

2007-11-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

it's my birthday.
but im feeling very down when im suppose to be enjoying my day.

people send messages... call me wishing me...
asking me how did i celebrate my birthday...
guess wat i answered...

"by sitting in front of the computer trying to concentrate on the assignment"

pathetic rite?...
very!!!...

i dont even dare to go out... yes... i dont dare!...
i scared if i go out then everything cannot be finished...
i get scared over something very easily...

and worst...
i dont really know how to do my part for the group assignment...
it's not easy though...
i ask here ask there...
all say "dont know"...
gone case lah...

i really feel like crying...
as far as i can remember i never felt so lost like this before...

but now...
i think i should have went out...

i wanna be 18

2007-11-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

less than 24 hours till i turn 19...

i dont want...

can i still be 18?

i enjoy being 18...

assignments waiting... one big final group assignment to complete...it carries 40% of the final mark... presentation this saturday... i cant wait for it to be done...

shall try to update later... till then... im out...

november, emily loves you

2007-11-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

it's already the 11th month of the year...
its november...

emily loves november...

yay! =)

a trick on halloween

2007-10-31T18:54:00.000+08:00

just when people started to stress over the amount of assignments that are due-ing soon... the damn stupid idiotic virus decided to come and attack...

DAMN THE VIRUS!!!

the creator of it must be plain bored and probably wanting some attention. damn the fella lah.

the virus im talking about is the one going around MSN. the photo album virus. it sucks that i fall to the trap after escaping from it several times. the virus really know how to choose its time to attack.

i was busy dealing with the group project. the group members and me were busy sending and accepting files from each other about the project. so click, click and i accidentally accepted the virus file. argh... now i regret for not looking at the file properly before accepting. i thought it has something to do with the group project. what more mine didnt come with that weird message.

now my lappie is sick. it needs a doctor. my anti-virus detect trojan in my lappie. geramnya. i dont dare to sign-in my msn. i scared the virus auto send out again. very embarrassing wan leh. cause it sends out with those weird messages that is sooooo not me.

so... i might not be available online till i get the damn trojan away. till the brother spare some time and help me reformat the laptop lah. i dont know how to reformat comps. thats why.

anyway...
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

i finally found some time to update.

2007-10-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

oh gawd... quite long i never update already... the bloggie sudah berhabuk...

sorry... been busy with assignments and tests... everything just start pouring in one by one... so stress... but thank gawd i survived... and now i shall be enjoying my one week semester break before continuing the heavy schedule after it...

not looking forward to what's gonna happen after the hols... for sure its gonna be very hectic...

until then... i shall enjoy the holiday... even though it's only a week... but better then nothing...

i got something else to blog about... but feeling kinda lazy now... maybe some other time when i have the mood to do...

oh yah... happy raya to the malays...

till the next post... im out..

another person hits 19.

2007-09-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

it's ayumi's birthday today...
lets wish her happy birthday...

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, AYUMI YOW!!
one year older, one year wiser... your last year being a teen... enjoy it to the fullest...

an angel might rescue me.

2007-09-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was probably the worst day in my life. no kidding.

i woke up just like how i do everyday. but yesterday, i woke up feeling rather weak. i couldnt even finish my lunch before going for class. i hardly ate either. i thought i should be ok. so i went for class.

oh gawd. never would i want to experience the same thing again. i went to uni feeling not that bad. thought i could stand till my second class end. but i was wrong. i was kinda suffering throughout my first lecture. my face was so pale at that time. i couldnt stand and gave up. called my daddy and i went home after my first class.

at night was horrible. i didnt really eat my dinner also. and i couldnt really sleep at night. felt really hot like i was in a steam room. and this is the only time i actually ask for water. usually i am forced to drink water.

felt better today. but i decide to skip class. daddy gave the green light so is a day off for me. knowing that i will miss quite alot of stuff, i still decide to skip. i felt much better than yesterday but still feeling weak.

class tomorrow is at 8.30am. i should be able to attend it.

excitement and weirdos.

2007-09-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

first of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TAN HUI YI!!
you're 19 today... hope you enjoy your last year of being a teen... and all the best in your studies especially with STPM this year...

It's already the fasting month... the malays are gonna start puasa-ing... in fact they started fasting today... well... when it is the fasting month, the pasar ramadhan comes together... so fun... got so many food... and the pasar ramadhan is just nearby my house... now, i dont need to worry if im hungry in the evening...

im finding things are getting weirder these days... i dont know why... there's this fella asking me weird question that me myself dont even know... even worst when the fella ask me things that i havent heard before... that fella is plain weird... probably trying to seek attention... i guess...

new template and facebook

2007-09-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

yay!
new blogskin.
and it's in white.
first time seeing my whole blog white in colour (one of my blogskin was half white before).
it's so bright now.

i spend my evening editing it. it looks ok now but i still think there's something wrong somewhere. shall try to figure out what's wrong later.

im bored now. i know i should be working on my tutorial homework but i found something new to play on. facebook. i know im slow but now only i got interested in it. and ayumi added me as a friend. no harm trying it since everyone is complementing it.

unfair and impossible

2007-08-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

it is ridiculous to use such excuse to escape from something.

the lecturer for one of my classes just have to make things worst. that one particular class has too many students till my lecturer decided to split the tutorials to two groups. the actual tutorial class is supposed to be on thursdays, 8 - 9.30am. and since the lecturer wants to split the class, the other tutorial will be on fridays, 4 - 5.30pm.

BUT the way my lecturer did was very UNFAIR. until now i still think its UNFAIR. at first my lecturer said the sign ups will be on a FIRST COME FIRST SERVE basis. who manage to get their names on that piece of paper first, they get the class. and of course majority of us wants to stick to the actual class which is on thursday.

so since not many people wants to follow the friday tutorial, the lecturer forced some of us to take the friday class. i was one of them. and i am one of them who manage to sign up for the thursday class. the reason my lecturer gave was because we dont have classes on friday.

WHAT THE HECK?!?! what kind of reason is this???

my lecturer allow those who are working and having classes on friday to attend the thursday class. even some escape the friday class by having club activities as a reason. WTH! if you see the schedule properly, it is impossible to have any other classes clashing with the friday's class. what more if it is club activities. so it is IMPOSSIBLE to accept "i have class on friday" and "i have club activities" as an excuse.

this is so not fair. even my daddy agrees with me. haha. i told my daddy everything. the whole scenario on the way home. that time i really cannot tahan and i want to lepaskan geram on somebody. but my daddy was cool with it. lucky me.

back to being a student

2007-08-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

it's back to university already.
back to assignments, tests, and the normal lectures and tutorials.

my timetable turn out to be not tooo bad. eventhough there is a subject that i dont want to take. like what ayumi said, we were kinda "force" to take the subject. cause there's really no other subjects for us to take.

enough about it.

i am sick. waking up with a pain throat and sneezing all the way. im down with a slight fever too. was feeling very weak yesterday and i lost my voice. felt better today but still sneezing all the way. hope the sneezing thingy would get off soon cause my nose felt like baboom-ing already.

tomorrow shall be a better day. i hope.

horrible timetable they can offer

2007-08-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

the new semester is starting next week. and so the new timetable is out. the timetable is probably the worst timetable i could ever look at. the choices of subjects are so limited. and i really mean very limited. how to choose?.. you tell me. they gave us the freedom to choose the subjects and groupings but providing us with horrible time.

i really dont know how they arrange the subject availability list. it looks as if the management play some random game and come out with the subjects. or maybe playing the mi-ni-mi-ni-ma-ni-mo game. argh.

20 subjects offered for this semester. with all the pre-requisite rubbish and minus the subjects i have taken, i am down with only 5 mass comm subjects and 3 humanities (as electives) subject to choose. and all the subjects are scattered from 8am to 4pm with some clashing with each other.

im left with two choices at the moment. a not-so-nice timetable or having to study a subject that i might not be interested in. which one should i choose?

bring me away from what is happening

2007-08-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

how miserable could a person's life be?

i have many questions that needed an answer. but before that, could the particular question above be answered?.. is it easy to find an answer to it. i wonder.

there's an article talking about the planet saturn affecting everyone's horoscopes in today's newspaper. *click here to read* and continue with this *click*

and the description for my horoscope is so...
Scorpio (Virishigam): Be patient, watch your health and expenses, and avoid confrontations with anyone, at home or at work.

i try not to believe it but i think its true. cause it is really happening to me at this time. and whatever that happened really did pull my mood down.

at the moment i really hope to get away from reality. everything that is happening is a little too much for me. im afraid i could no longer stand it. i pray for a miracle to happen.

if miracles do happen

2007-08-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

the day is getting quiet. im quite bored now actually. i cant seem to find anything interesting to keep me entertained.

youtube has been failing on me today. i cant load the pages. after trying for 85892946832 times it still cant load. youtube has been my best friend these few days at night. when i cant sleep. and there are no interesting show to watch on tv. so to keep me entertain now, i shall blog.

oh oh oh but try watching Ichi Rittoru no Namida or also known as One Litre of Tears. this is one hella japanese series that puts me to tears. no kidding. i've watch the whole series and it is really a sad drama. based on a true story, this show is about a girl who was diagnosed with an incurable disease. she was so positive that she didn't give up easily. try watching it. episode 2 is tomorrow at 8tv, 6pm.

i feel like swimming. its been ages since i last swam. suddenly i have the feeling of getting back in the pool.

the youtube website still refuses to load. is it just me or is everyone having the same problem?..

it's so small but it hurts badly

2007-08-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

pain, pain, pain!!..

the ulcer on my lips hurts so bad. what makes the pain worst is that i keep biting it whenever im chewing something. ouch. and i cant find any bonjela at home.

about 2 more weeks till im hitting the books again. im not bored of the holiday yet. and i cant think of what else to blog about.

sorry.

to punish and enslave

2007-07-21T02:29:00.000+08:00

transformers

i just came home from watching this movie...

ive finally watch it...

yeah yeah.. i know im slow lah...

the brother was so kind to company me watch this movie...

my first but his second time watching it...

only one word for it... AWESOME!!

the Optimus Prime group was so nice to watch...

i love Jazz's pontiac solstice...

i wouldnt mind having a car serving me like Bumblebee's camaro...

great...

now i can join the group who has watched transformers without feeling lost...

down town

2007-07-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

yippie yay...
i went down town again...

to kl i mean...

i like it when the family goes to kl...

daddy will somehow go to the pan mee shop i love...

actually the pan mee shop the whole family love eating...

the family was home today...

and the brother wants to go to the dentist...

and the dental clinic was all the way at setapak...

the whole family went along...

but only the brother is gonna see the dentist...

at first i was reluctant to go...

if i dont go mummy will stay at home with me...

but daddy smart... he use the pan mee as an excuse...

how to not follow you tell me...

i hate the smell of dental clinics...

actually anything that had to do with medicine i dont like...

i hate the smell...

being the usual me i cant sit still at the clinic...

funny sounds from the consultation room and the smell around the clinic...

oh gawd... i cannot tahan...

walk out of the clinic and find a place that sells magazine...

that shop lousy wan lah...

sell mostly malay magazine...

i find and find and find and finally found HOT magazine...

at least better that the dont-know-what malay magazine...

paid and left...

stupid me go and buy an outdated magazine...

stupid lah...

that shop con me...

mummy came out of the clinic...

so we jalan jalan around the area...

that place is so boring and not to forget scary...

after the brother is done with his teeth...

we went to this wholesaler nearby...

that shop sells tidbits, tidbits and more tidbits...

got so many sweets... chocolates... biscuits... and others lah...

those junks you see in pasar malam...

see what i found...

sochews chewing candy

so long never see this sweet already...

since primary school...

then cannot find it selling anywhere...

and now i got my hands on it...

i can start chewing it like there's no tomorrow...

haha...

oh i got this too...

nini

oops sorry this is eaten

after buying like we will never see the shop anymore...

pan mee!!... pan mee!!!...

yay yay...

wonder what's so special today...

the shop got super alot of people...

have to share table with other people...

i prefer not to share table...

not that im selfish but i prefer eating without anybody rushing me...

and i admit i eat very slow...

so when there's other people around i will start to get panic...

dont ask me why...

at first have to share table with this indian family...

thought would have the whole table to ourself after they are done eating...

halfway eating that pan mee man lead 3 ladies to our table...

and that 3 lady super irritating...

keep on looking at what are we eating...

and when i was rubbing my eyes one of them think i was crying...

haha... she quickly go ask her other friend is the chili really that hot till i can cry...

fyi, i didnt cry...

i went summit too...

the place is boring but there is so many dvd shop...

my chance to get box sets to watch...

but luck wasnt on my side...

didnt get any show to watch...

saw the doggie again...

i want... the quality of it is so nice to hug...

i shall go back there and get it one day...

oh yah... liuqing... i saw that spinning thingy in your room there...

if im not wrong it was selling for rm70...

i didnt get the hugable doggie but i got this...

lucky stars paper

d.i.y. bracelet

something to keep my time occupied...

i enjoy folding stars actually...

and i have a few 'container' of stars already...

this is one of them...

a small one. the one next to it are hearts.

i did the bracelet already...

nice nice?...
i made it by myself...
with the help of this...

but err... i dont read chinese...
so i was depending on the pictures...
i manage to complete it anyway...
and make it fit the size of my wrist...

got 2 computer games...
dvd games...
but what the hell...
both of it dont seem to work...
one of it cant install...
the other one keeps closing after playing for awhile...
stupid lah...
waste 20 bucks...
1 game 10 bucks leh...
dam unlucky...
the brother tried to help...
but fail...
next time buy the normal cd game...
cheaper... 5 bucks only...
i got no game to play... besides the ps2 game that im getting bored already...

argh...

not really a good day...

i get to eat pan mee, found the all-time favourite sweet...

but got con by people...

crap.

halfway through july

2007-07-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

oopsie...

it's been about a week plus since the last post...

didn't know it was that long...

but it's the holidays for me now...

so i should try to blog more?...

anyway...

the holidays have been treating me well...

if im not staying at home layaning the house...

i will be out layaning the friends...

it hasnt get any boring yet...

ps2-ing, dvd-ing, internet-ing, tv-ing...
and shopping!!... of course...

______________________________

suepheng's 19th birthday yesterday...

attended her party at her house...

get to meet back with the classmates...

huiyi and me

liyana, huiyi and me

liyana, daniel, huiyi, shawn and me

there's some more pictures...
but im kinda lazy to upload the rest...
and there's some in liyana's camera...
overall...
we enjoy talking more...
with a little bit of gossiping...
and also bullying shawn...
haha...

i left the party early...
*sorry suepheng*...
to catch this...

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

i watch the movie with the brother...
at gsc 1 utama...
the brother got the tickets earlier...
but i still dont get to skip the long queue...
cause the queue to get some tidbits is so long also...
there were just so many humans there...
not forgetting so many couples...
and also the couple that keeps complaining behind me while trying to get something to eat...

the movie was so-so...
to me...
it was kinda dry...

i cant stand this lady...
she's so irritating in the movie...

but i like this twins...
they are so fun to watch in the movie...

maybe i should start reading the book...
and since its the holiday...
i could spend the time with the books...
if i could stand the thickness of the book...

i never forget

2007-07-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ANG LIU QING!!

it's your 18th... hope you have a wonderful birthday... and a memorable one too... and yeah... same age as me... yay... i dont sound so old already... cheers...

enjoy your 18th birthday ok...

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-edited- at 21:53 -

as requested... you wanted a post about you...

being your goodie good friend... this is for you...

a little late... but it is still written within the day...

i knew you when i was in form 4. so that makes you form 3 that year. if not because of interact club, i might not know you. it was then that we grew closer. 3 years of friendship and still counting... i hope.

back in high school, she is one of the reason why i am always not in class. if it is not interact club, it will be something else. she is always seen around my class when her class is at the other block. oh and i think she stalks my class cause she knows when my class has no teacher. when she wants to cry, the moment she sees me, she cant. i wonder why.

we cant go shopping together. cause we always happen to like the same thing. as if we can read each others mind. oh i can guess what's in her mind always. yes yes i can. whenever she tells me something i can guess the answer. emily so smart.

she always claim herself as the cute girl. she loves purple alot. her room is purple in colour. oh and she likes liverpool. she has this huge liverpool poster in her room. she likes her monkey so much till she bullies her orange elephant. and i like that spinning thingy in your room. can i have it?...

i cant think of what else to write. i hope this is enough.

ok lah.

i miss you. i love you. =)

a new change

2007-07-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

im not happy...

im done with exam...
shouldnt i be happy?..
but im not...

shouldnt be because i'm having holidays that i could not see my friends...
and not like i will miss the campus cause the campus is way more boring...
probably it's because i dont feel confident with my answers for the exam...

hack it...
screw the exam...

on the bright side...
i've got 7 weeks of holiday to look forward too...
hope i wont get bored halfway...
really dont know what to do for 7 weeks...

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change the blog template again...
i like i like...
simple enough to suit the blog...

well... still doing some changes to it...
i know how to do minor changes to the layout...
but i dont know how to do my own one...
as in designing the whole thing by myself...
wont be easy...
with all those complicated html codes and stuff...

anybody willing to teach me??...

oh yah...
is the font too small for you all to read?...
respond ok...
i shall change it if it is too small...

remember... respond ok...
my cbox has been tooooo quite...
tooo quite till it scares me...
as long as you're not scary or creepy...
i welcome you...
to talk to me lah...

less then 24 hours

2007-07-01T19:24:00.000+08:00

my final exam is tomorrow...
and i hardly studied...
instead i've been shopping...
i think i've only read 4 to 5 pages of my notes...
which is not only bad...
but i have to sleep late again today to prepare myself for the exam...
lucky i only need to read about 26 pages of notes...
because the subject has no text book...

the good thing is...
no final exam for public speaking...
so...
i only have one paper to answer...
advertising copywriting...
at 12 pm tomorrow...
and im gonna be free when the clock strikes 2!!!...

HOLIDAY!!!

but for now...
it shall just be me with my 26 pages of notes...

it irritates me just when i dont need it

2007-06-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

argh...
one of the houses at the back of my house is so damn smart...
i wouldnt blame them of renovating their house...
but the renovation is taking ages to complete...
and the house is so near my house...

i dont like renovations!!!

even though it makes the house looks nicer, newer or whatever...
still they are disturbing my sleep...
with all the drilling, knocking and whatever sound that is loud enough to disturb my sleep...

and today...
i come to realise that...
not only the house at the back is doing some renovation...
but some house in front is also doing it...
oh gawd...
im sick of that sound...
it's irritating...

speaking of irritating...
there's this irritating human talking to me on msn...
and this fella is seriously irritating...
and pure weird...
the status "busy" dont seem to work on that fella...
it wouldnt stop the fella from talking to me...
how?...
should i try "away" instead?...

the "5 things" tag

2007-06-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

ok fine. the tag. and something interesting for the liuqing to read.

5 things found in your school bag: err.. my school bag is my handbag.. is that counted?..
1. purse
2. hand phone
3. ipod
4. sweets
5. tissue

5 things found in your purse/wallet:
1. identity card
2. driving license
3. some other cards (student id, member/privilege cards...)
4. money
5. receipts

5 favourite things in your room:
1. my bed
2. my soft toys
3. my laptop
4. my pillows
5. my video cd radio player

5 things you are currently into:
1. heroes
2. rozen maiden (some japanese anime ayumi borrowed me)
3. that new coming soon sony ericsson phone
4. public speaking last presentation
5. the take home test

5 people you will tag:
1. any
2. human
3. who
4. is
5. bored

platinum vs silver

2007-06-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

class today was at 4pm...
before that...
ayumi, yeemun and i meet up in midvalley...
to watch...

Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer...
did i get the title correct?...
cause before the movie all i know was just fantastic four...
didnt know what was the rest of the title...

and after the movie we were talking about it...
and the worst thing is i addressed the silver surfer guy as the platinum guy...
i think he has like two different names in the movie...
and i cant remember any of it...
so the word platinum just came out from my head instead of silver...
didnt know why...
suddenly i was like "eh, that platinum guy............"
since then the word 'platinum guy' keeps coming out in conversation...
so sad lah...

aiyoh... even ayumi has that word on her msn now...

lollipop sings?

2007-06-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

it was in the afternoon...
was bored so i started flipping the channels on astro...
and i came across Lollipop Tv Special on AEC...
not the lollipop candy...
but they are some taiwanese group...

since i was lazy to get started on the speech i am suppose to present on monday...
i watch that show...
only to find out that one of their member look like edison chen from certain angles...

this is the group...
Lollipop or also known as... err... Bangbangtang...

notice the guy second from right...
doesnt he look abit like edison chen?...
abit not alot k...
unless you think he look a lot like edison chen...
yes? no? yes? no?...
dont know?...
fine...

needa prepare for my persuasive speech on monday...
which i dont know what to present on...
so dead...

interesting as it is

2007-06-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

i love it when there's no class...
because i get to sit in front of the laptop and watch one tree hill...
so so happy...
my brother transfered one tree hill season 4 for me...
but i have no time to watch...
until yesterday...

what happened yesterday?...
i skip class...
i only have one class anyway...
and it's at 4pm...
i ended up watching one tree hill the whole day...
i am kinda on a one tree hill marathon...
since i have missed out a lot...
watched until episode 12 halfway...

today's class was cancel...
so i had the whole day to me...
i continue watching where i've stop the day before...
and now i am on episode 17...
i have until episode 20...
so fun...

yippie...
i've got heroes waiting for me too...
you know?... HEROES...
the show everybody has been talking about...
my brother has been persuading me to watch it...
not sure i will like it or not...
shall see how it goes when i start watching episode 1...

when black isn't the only colour

2007-05-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

mummy's birthday was yesterday (30 May)...
the whole family went out for dinner to celebrate...
after my class, i went home to get ready to go out with the family...
we went to midvalley and dine in San Francisco Steak House...
i enjoy the food there...
both my parents and my brother were surprised to see me eating salad...
just because im not a vegetable lover...
btw... the salad was included in the set...
and i had some cauliflower soup too...
overall it was a great day...
i guess it was probably my healthiest day too...
with all the vegetables i ate...

21 May...
also marks a celebration in the family...
it was daddy's birthday...
and chinese food were selected on the day...
dragon-i was the location...
me likey the food there...
and daddy was super nice on his birthday...

glad mum and dad were happy on their birthday...

________________________

i had my first presentation for public speaking on monday...
it was an impromptu speech...
oh gawd...
my topic was crazy...
i had to present a memorial speech at my ex-husband's memorial service...
the topic i never wanted to get...
imagine all the crap i said just to complete the 3 minutes impromptu speech...
and guess what...
i delivered the most cheerful memorial speech...
interesting huh?...
but glad it was over...

next up for public speaking is informative speech...
and it will begin on monday...

with the advertisement assignment due on tuesday...
and an informative speech to prepare for monday...
my weekend shall be busy...

everything isnt perfect after all

2007-05-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

so the timetable has improved...
im pretty much satisfied with it...
i think...
it isnt as nice as my previous semester's timetable...
but i have no choice...
hope i have a better timetable next semester...

currently...
the super long breaks are gone...
my class are in the afternoon...
no more morning class for me...
no more morning traffic jams...
but there are evening traffic jams...

im taking public speaking and advertising copywriting...
i enjoy public speaking but not advertising copywriting...
mr kannan, my public speaking lecturer makes the class so interesting...
but ms eyasmin, the advertising copywriting lecturer makes me dislike the class...
there's just something i dont like in her class...

i dont like uni...
im feeling more lonely...
im feeling more out of place...
i dont know...
i wonder why others can be so happy all the time...
but me being rather lost and unhappy...
everything is just so not right...

the new semester is so bad

2007-05-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

ok...
so the new semester started...
what can i say about it?...
it sucked...
the timetable sucked even more...
i have like long breaks...
and it is so not fun...
the shortest is 2 and a half hour...
i cant think what to do during that time...
all i know even if i were to have lunch or whatever...
no matter how slow i eat...
i dont take that long to finish a meal...
btw the longest break is 5 hours...
and the worst thing is i have classes everyday now...

mummy's day is today

2007-05-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

it's mummy's day today...
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MUMMY!!!...
hope you enjoyed the day...
and happy with the company and presents you got...

nothing surprising happened today...
but mummy was happy overall...

we went shopping...
with daddy...
my brother couldnt tag along as he have plans...
we shopped...
and for me to get a gift for her...
mummy get to choose her gift this time...
i knew she had something in mind...
so i get her to the shop and let her choose...
at least mummy loves it...
it was a crystal bracelet...
i got one for myself too...
and i got a pendent also...
hehe...
after a few hours shopping in the mall...
we left with smiles on our face...

had plans to bring mummy out for dinner...
but mummy prefer a simple quiet dinner at home...
so the whole family stayed at home for dinner...

although nothing special happened...
but we had lots of fun with each other...
even a simple car ride today cracked lots of laughter...

it's back to uni tomorrow...
not really looking forward to it...
my timetable is gonna suck this semester...

coming to an end

2007-05-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

is tuesday already...
few more days to enjoy the holiday...

new semester is starting next week...
it's going to be a short semester...
7 weeks only...
after that holiday again...

since it's going to be a short semester...
i dont know how is it going to be...
but according to others...
there will be TWO lectures and TWO tutorials for each subject every week...
i think it's going to be very stressful...
hope i can take it lah...
never experience going through only 7 weeks of classes before...

results are supposed to be out TODAY...
i dont want to know my resuls...
but somehow i will have to know what i get...
im sensing bad results...
i dont know why...
but i wonder why i dont seem to be seeing any results today...
check my emails... no news...
check mypride... no news...
i havent check my letter box yet...
hack it lah... i dont care already...

the weather is so HOT...
i cant stand the heat...
luckily there is the aircond...

final exam

2007-04-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

has over...
OVER!!!
finally, im done with all four final exam paper...
and i think i did badly in all four of it...
hack it... it's done...

now...
NO MORE
... looking at books with boring words
... listening to boring lectures
... facing those boring lecturers
... waking up early just to attend class
... stressing over quizzes, test and assignments
... and many more...
UNTIL THE NEXT SEMESTER!!!

yahoo!...
it's time to enjoy...
enjoy the time called h.o.l.i.d.a.y...
enjoy the freedom from studies...
and enjoy the time im away from the boring campus...

anybody free to go out with me?...
spiderman 3 is coming out on cinema soon...

i find help's library management a bit weird...
they have tables...
each table only allow 4 students...
those 4 chairs one table stuff...
the librarians dont allow the students to borrow a chair from the other table...
they dont even allow us to remove the chair...
that means one rectangular table only can have 4 chairs...
fine then...
but the librarians also have issue with students sharing chairs...
one chair two person sit...
they say cannot...
like that then how to have a fifth member joining in the table...
add a chair you say cannot...
share chair also cannot...
if sit on the table sure worst...
so how?... macam mana?..
sorry if this whole library thingy is un-understandable (is there such word as un-understandable? i dont think so)

btw... this happened today in the library with my friends... there were 5 of us...

i think msn has an issue with me...
they dont allow me to have my decorative nickname...
my nickname now is so plain, boring and uninteresting...
BORING...

Hanazakarino Kimitachihe

2007-04-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

or in short Hana Kimi...
is coming to 8tv...
saw the advertisement...

that's the show...
but i already got the whole series downloaded...
for me to enjoy during my holidays...
wu zun and wang dong cheng is acting it it...

but then the show on tv sure sensor alot...
just like what they did to "devil beside you" which is on tv now...
they sensor alot...
make the show so not nice to watch...
compare to what i watch on astro...
wonder how will the last episode of "devil beside you" will be...

exams have been treating me badly...
last minute cramming everything into my small little brain...
lack of sleep...
high stress level...
i cant stand it anymore...
i want my holidays now...

two down, two more to go...
microecons and leadership and life skills...
i cant wait to put my books and notes aside...
i cant wait to enjoy my holidays!

a trip down to kl

2007-04-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

went down to kl with daddy and my brother to collect something
mummy was away in terengganu
so she couldnt tag along

since we are already in kl, daddy drove us to eat pan mee
my favourite pan mee in kl
quite some time i never go there and eat already

i was eating so happily until this bunch of working humans came and eat
in that group there's this man
talk so loud like the people around him is deaf
just as he place his ass on the chair

that man: how many bowls you all want?
that man: 8 bowls? 9 bowls? 10 bowls?

fyi, there were about 7 of them in the group...
after awhile...

that man: (while talking to the girl beside him) i am 80kg now
that man: i was 65kg before this
that man: yes. i was 65kg and now im 80kg
that man: i gained 15kg!
that man: wonder where the 15kg come from

and the rest i cannot remember
later on he went on about some jigsaw puzzle
dunno what else lah

went off after eating
on the way to the car i was practically laughing
couldnt tahan any longer
we were talking about that guy all the way to the car
about him "announcing" his weight and all

after so many times eating there
i just realize that there is a shop that sells senjata api dan peluru

that's all for today...
im out!..

take the huge burden off my shoulders

2007-04-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i jot something in my blog.
blame the amount of assignments i have.
i finally handed in three assignments on monday.
two group and one individual.
i guess i really should blame myself procrastinating all the way.
but thank gawd this time i took the effort to start a week earlier.
i guess if it wasnt the dateline set in between group members for the group assignment, i would probably in deep shit rushing everything a day or two before the dateline.

with all the assignments done and handed it on time.
im down with a presentation that im sure will be on tomoro.
and finals.
collected my exam docket just to find out that my first paper starts next saturday, april 14.
what the hell.
i never thought exams will be held on saturdays too.
and i got one paper starts at 4pm.
crazy.
how to do exam at that time.
i will be so darn sleepy.

my final exam time table...
14 April 2007
12.00-02.00pm: Introduction to Mass Communication
19 April 2007
12.00-02.00pm: Social and Business Communication
20 April 2007
04.00-06.00pm: Introductory to Microeconomics
21 April 2007
12.00-02.00pm: Leadership and Life Skills

after exams, i got about 3 weeks of holidays.
after that, hopefully no more kannan, johngarcia, melindachung, and yapyokelin.
1 semester with them can really drive me crazy.

monday blues

2007-03-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

attend LLS lecture this morning. but i hardly even paid attention in class. not even during the q&a session. have been the usual quiet me. anyway the class is getting smaller and smaller. can get what im trying to picture here? have to be the boring lecture that chases everybody out of the class.

anyway... i got distracted by yeemun's ipod. seeing the amount of nice movies she have in it kinda distract me. between a boring lecture and nice movies, of cause i choose to watch movie. more entertaining. i think my lecturer kinda notice me doing something else when he walk around the class while we were suppose to be doing some discussion. the devil wears prada was the movie of the day. didnt manage to finish watching it with the amount of noise i guess mainly from the psychology students. yeemun was so kind and nice to save some movies she have from the laptop to my pendrive. we kinda exchange ipods during the lecture. she watch whatever show i have while i watch whatever show she have. fair and square. both of us got the ipods to entertain us during the three hour boring lecture.

lecture didnt really took three hours. finish class around 11 something. headed back to main block for lunch and pizza hut was our destination. ate and chit chat.

went back to kpd for our next class at two. MCH101. got back our assignment and test marks. last week my lecturer announced that 80% of the class failed the assignment. so i was thinking does that means he's 80% failing as a lecturer? how can 80% of the class failed miserably for that assignment. guess what happened when we got back our results. the "generous" lecturer somehow upgraded alot of people's marks to pass. he was darn friggin generous. he even said he might think of upgrading the test marks too. wahahahahah. so kebetulan after all his unexpected moves, the office person came in the class with the lecturer evaluation form. we have to evaluate him.

8am lecture tomoro. until now i somehow feel very tensed attending that class. both lecture and tutorial for that particular subject. guess it has something to do with the lecturer.

i've got a new email add. text me if you want it.

as expected.

2007-03-14T12:50:00.000+08:00

faggot...
ang liu qing...
i sudah agak you did something with your motorala razr or whatever that phone is when i was playing with your so dam kesian no eyes orange elephant you throw it on the floor. and as expected i saw whatever you did on your wonderful blog. oh and i know you wont bother but your captions for the picture are all wrong!
i.read.your.blog.

an after-so-long update

2007-02-28T15:36:00.000+08:00

fine. after missing in action for quite sometime. im back to typing something in my blog.

first of all...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
it's kinda late but better late then nothing rite? anyway... cny left few more days to enjoy. so enjoy the celebration of welcoming the year of the pig to the fullest. collect more angpao since there's still time. dont regret after that.

my chinese new year celebration was not that bad. might be a little quiet this year. no trip back to any hometown this year. had dinner with one of my uncle's family on the eve at some chinese restaurant at pj hilton. dinner was entertaining and the food was great.

that was eve. first day of chinese new year was fun. went over to my aunt's house in sunway. had some gathering there with the other relatives. the place was full with humans this year. one after another came visiting. this time i tried some ice cream wine (as what my cousin said). it was baileys if im not wrong.

second, third day and so on are just the same. going out. visiting. and other activities that people do on chinese new year. but not as fun as the first day.

i couldnt really enjoy cny that long. other peole have a week break from college/university but not me. class starts on wednesday. but for me it's thursday as i dont have any class on wednesday. the worst thing is i have an assignment due on friday. the same week as chinese new year. how evil can my lecturer be to put an assigment due on the very same week. i have to go back to uni on friday just to hand it in since i couldnt finish it on thursday. another thing. i took the effort to attend class on thursday and 2 out of 3 classes i have were canceled. wonderful right?

that's all for the moment.
im off!...

50th entry

2007-02-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

it's the 50th entry. since i started this blog.
and i'm dedicating this entry specially for Minni.
since it's her special day today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GAN MINNI!!

it's your 19th...

hope you have a wonderful and memorable birthday...

all the best in your studies and enjoy yourself in monash k...

we shall meet up one day ok?...

i shall drop by the 'human zoo' one day when im free...

u dont dump me aside den cukup...

weird sickness i have

2007-02-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

im back!...

not that i went anywhere on a vacation. i was sick for the past week. i think it was longer. about a week to two. i was down with fever and sore throat on thursday. last last thursday to be exact. it was real suffering. i cant really move around the house. my body was heating up and my throat was dam pain. lucky on friday i have no classes and no replacement class were scheduled on that day. so i get a day off to rest. oh well. on friday my condition didnt get any better. eating panadol to survive and hope my body temperature went down. it did. but my mom was scaring me with dengue fever. so my dad decide to get me to the doctor the following day to check whats wrong with me. i gave in and go. fyi, it's very hard to persuade me to see the doctor cause i dislike visiting clinics since young. anything related to medicine i dont like. i guess that explains why i wasnt even interested in becoming a doctor after all. ok back to the doctor visit. see the doctor and found out that my throat was swollen. SWOLLEN. no wonder it was dam freaking pain whenever i swallow something down my throat. and my fever was just the normal fever so no worries. i went home with five different types of medicine. five different types and different colours. there's blue, white, green, yellow, and brown if you want to know. i thought after finishing those medicine that i dont enjoy taking, i should be cured. but my condition became weird. today i'll be ok and the next day i wont. one word WEIRD. this time i was very reluctant to visit the doctor again. but if it continues to be like this i sure have to go back to the clinic lah.

i cant write any longer this time. i need to proceed to my book. i have a quiz to answer tomorrow. and i know nuts about the subject. after 5 weeks of lectures and i still dont get whats happening in that class. interesting huh?...

is help really that crazy?...

2007-01-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

did i really describe help as a crazy place in my previous entry? i really hope i didn't. fine. help isn't really that bad. serious. i guess. maybe that day was just one of my unlucky days. don't go around spreading about me saying help is a crazy place. please.

at the moment, I'm still in the process of adapting my life as a degree student. a university student sounds more like it. it takes awhile as I'm kinda used to how school and college life is. i don't think I'm ready to go forward yet. I'm not used to having the lectures seperated from tutorials. serious. i find my lectures can be real boring as all you do is listen to what the lecturer is talking and probably having some questions and answers session. the lectures can take up to 2 hours for each subject. and lectures are in big groups. this gives me more opportunity to not pay attention. and this does not help. what more can i say when class is in the auditorium where the chairs are like those in cinemas and it's so comfortable with a not so interesting lecture in front of you. confirm sleepy. lucky only one of my lecture is in the auditorium hall. if not habis cerita.

i don't know what else to write. i don't think u all want to know what i do every single hour every single day rite. my life ain't interesting though. i have a very boring life.

i like pow pow. u know the 8tv mascot. that fella is like jack jack's twin. remember jack jack? that little baby in 'the incredible'. yes. but this is pow pow. haha. i enjoy watching his latest advertisement. so darn cute. "i rawk!". and pow pow whacks people who rubs his head!

interesting and horrible experience all in a week...

2007-01-20T23:35:00.001+08:00

had dinner with the relatives just now...
i tried japanese wine...
forgot it contain how many percent of alcohol...
and i think it tasted weird...
the wine was sweet...
yes it has a sweet taste...
others who drank the wine also said it was sweet...
so i guess that's what it taste like...
the dinner overall was great...
just that i felt kinda bored...

oh... did i say how 'wonderful' my week has gone?...
ayumi and i nearly got stuck at KPD Block A, Level 3 on thursday...
imagine if we really get stuck there i wont be able to type this entry now...
ok here's how it started...
we were waiting for the lift to Level 3 to attend class...
i find the people who took the lift with us were so evil...
is either they were evil or they dont dare to talk...
they didnt have the courtesy to tell us the door to enter the building was LOCK when they actually knew about it...
because of them preferring to keep their mouth shut...
we have to wait for the lift to get out from that level...
not to say that the lift takes ages to reach...
but we were kinda late for class already...
and guess what...
the lift decided to play game with us...
the lift decided to act strangely and blackout for awhile after ayumi press the close button a couple of time...
can you imagine how we felt at the moment the lift wasnt working?...
how are we going to get out from that place...
with the locked door and the lift going crazy?...
and there's no stairs for us to take...
the only exit from the lift is that door...
wah panic like crazy... i was so darn panic at that time... i guess ayumi was also feeling that way...
thank gawd the lift function again after awhile... like after one or two minutes...
at that time i was seriously scared taking the lift...
but i had no choice...
so took the lift and i get out of it safely...
this time we took the stairs and headed for class...
lucky the lecturer himself was late...
but then later we had to change classroom as there were some misunderstanding with the changes of classrooms...
we then head back to Block E to have class...
class was as normal...
after class ayumi and me went to check out the available second hand book that was on sale...
since we were used to take the lift in Block E as that is the building most of our classes are we werent worried about anything and decided to go with the lift instead of the stairs...
to our horrer...
the lift in Block E also went crazy...
the lights in the lift were blinking...
this time i would not want to take the risk so i go for the stairs...
and there i save my life...
stupid lift scare the hell out of me...

i realised what ive wrote is kinda confusing...
especially the location of the lift and stairs thingy...
but i lazy to re-explain it...
so just imagine however u want it to be...
worst to worst visit the place and see it for urself...

overall i might think twice before i take the lift next time...
maybe i should just stop being lazy and climb the stairs to class...
i shall stop being lazy...

i remember writing earlier that i have classes from monday to thursday rite...
guess what...
now i only have classes on mondays, tuesdays, and thursdays...
nice rite...
ayumi and me add and drop subjects till we get the best timetable we could...
both of us take the same classes together...
and what more can i ask... she's a great planner...
i think without her help i might get a sucky timetable for this semester...
THANKS AYUMI...
we have to survive microecons together with melinda chung... haha...

2 weeks of classes and ive encountered different incidents...
3 weeks since 2007 arrived, i've got 3 blueblacks (i knocked myself somewhere else and i got the extra 2 which equals to 3)...
what else might happen throughout the year...
i dont dare to imagine...

i skipped class today

2007-01-09T16:36:00.000+08:00

i skipped class today...
suppose to attend lecture this morning at 8 but i slept in...
yesterday night i was still thinking of attending class today...
but i so lazy to wake up...
anyway... i only have one class today... and the first class is introductory class as usual...
and i already know who my lecturer is... so should be ok if i skip the first class rite?...
anyway... this lecturer gave me the impression that she's strict... i think she IS really strict...
she dont allow the students to photocopy the text book for her class... have to buy the original copy... she will confiscate the book if it is photocopied...
imagine i have her for three different subjects... yes same lecturer... and i remember her saying her books are imported from dunno where... so no copyright copy allowed... dunno true or not... should be true rite...

i need suggestions...
hotmail or gmail better?...
remember the previous entry i worte about changing my email add...
so... is hotmail a better choice or gmail?...

first day

2007-01-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

first day of classes today...
yeah class start already...
i cannot be a lazy bum anymore...
had trouble this morning trying to decide my timetable for this semester...
ayumi and me going through hard time this morning deciding the best time for our classes after realising how the classes and the time thingy works...
so after all... we are gonna have 4 days of class all together...
with lectures the first two days and tutorials the following two days...
and everyday my class start at 8am except for thursday...
mondays would be a long day for me as i have lectures till 4pm...
but i have friday as a holiday... no classes on fridays!!!.... yahoooo... longer sleeping hours... and i can go out!...

sat for the IT placement test today...
it's compulsory for BComm students...
so have to take lorr...
3 practical questions... based on Ms Word/Excel/Power Point...
each question carries 20 marks...
that means all together is a 60 marks test... and the passing mark is 50%...
crap lah... if i never pass the test then how?... if i do so many careless mistakes till i lose more than 10 marks then how?... haiyoh... beginning of the semester also already think of all this... crap!...

on the very first day of class...
i went home with a blue black on my hand...
chunted rite?...
dont worry... nobody punch me nor bully me...
i got kissed by that chair/table...
i dunno what u call those...
those seminar chairs with the mini kinda table...

there's something wrong with me today...
i actually wrote my handphone number wrongly on my subject registration form...
crap lah...
how can i write my number wrongly when i've already used the number for dunno how many years already...
dam dumb lah...
because of this small little mistake i have to line up at the registry again some other day just to correct the info...
argh... apahal dengan saya hari ini...

i might change my email add...
might... havent make up my mind yet... but have been thinking to do so since ages ago...
the email add im currently using is like since primary school time?...
and i've got a number of unknown people on my messenger list...
so i guess it shall be a new start now... with a new change...
ok?...

outdated entry

2007-01-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

This was suppose to be Saturday's entry...
But something went wrong with the internet connection...

Back to Thursday...
It was my orientation day... yes you did not read wrongly... I decided to go to HELP to do my degree... and they held their orientation on this day... I had Ayumi as my course mate in HELP... I only found out the day before that she was also taking the same course at the same place as me... HELP was my final decision not because I didn't qualify for Monash (which was supposed to be my first choice) but it's because of some other reasons... anyway my dad was way happy when I decide to enroll myself in HELP instead of Monash... so I wont be seeing u guys in Monash... maybe a dropby...

So... orientation was so-so lah... it was actually kinda boring... what could you expect from orientation right?... with all those speeches and so on... one word... BORING... on the other hand... I met a few familiar faces in HELP during the orientation... a few CIMP people and a few Taman SEA people...

Days before I was thinking of skipping the orientation... as expected orientation would be so boring... and I might just be wasting my time going there... but... as stated on the orientation agenda, there will be a campus tour and selection of classes... at that time I was thinking that the campus tour might be a good idea as im new to that building and I might lost my way on the first day of class... besides that I can also choose my timetable... in the end I went for orientation and I was bored there with Ayumi... oh yah... fyi, the campus tour was useless... the so-called tour guide fella seems to be as blur as us... and he bring us the longer way all around the campus... after the whole tour, me and ayumi still don't know how to get to our destination... thank gawd there's wai kuan and her friend *sorry I ferget your name*... but thanks anyway...

From the agenda, the whole orientation was suppose to only end at 5.30pm but it ended at 4pm... so I called daddy and he came to pick me up... and then I headed home... and Im still wondering how am I gonna survive on Monday when im still unsure of where and where im suppose to go... classes start on Monday btw...

Overall, HELP is way different from Sunway... I really have to get use to it... HELP has three different building all together... and all the three building are separated... so to get to the KPD building *im gonna be studying here* or the Wisma Help building we have to take the bus from the main building... so abit the troublesome... and HELP has no cafeteria... but they have a wide variety of food outside... but you have to walk out lah... the rest im not sure... im just so use to how SYUC works... everything in one building... what to do... I was in SYUC for a year...

Im seriously happy ayumi is studying at HELP also... we decided to sesat together and act stupid together... interesting huh?... I really have to take my uni year seriously as this will determine my success in my career... I cannot be lazy anymore!!!...

As for Friday...
I got no activity on this day... so I decided to sleep in... i only slept for 3 hours the day before to attend orientation... oh I really ended up sleeping like a pig and not wanting to wake up until a phone call decided to wake me up... the rest of the day was staying at home and entertaining myself with whateva I felt like doing before starting class...

2007... this could be the start of something new...

2007-01-01T19:53:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!...

May the year 2007 bring lotsa luckz as well as joy and happiness in your life...

enjoy the year of the boar/pig...

and to those are going fer NS...
err... those who left fer NS this morning...
All the best and take care!...
come back one piece ok...

moments to be remembered...

2006-12-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

this is going to be the last entry for year 2006... the year just has to end so soon...

looking back... many had happen throughout 2006... sweet memories as well as bitter moments... well... life has its ups and downs right?... nobody's life is perfect... overall it have been one huge rollercoaster ride...

my highlights of 2006...
more to a brief highlight...
cant really remember every single details...

January
- became a student of Sunway University College taking up CIMP (Canadian International Matriculation Programme).
- made new friends. people from different schools.
- had happening lecturers for first semester .
- CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!...
- starting to adapt to how college life is.
- knew minni. my first friend in college besides my high school mates.

February
- valentines day.
- minni's birthday. we suprised her in college with a slice of cake.
- grew closer to natalie, ayumi, and mayxim.

March
- CIMP had volleyball game. remember taking lotsa pictures. at the field, cafeteria and in the library.
- Sunway Recharge. wasnt really into the event. we somehow got bored attending it.
- mayxim, minni, and me went over to jinfoong's hostel to complete our "Froggers" poster board. the process of doing it was fun and lotsa camwhoring too.
- and we got our group sticker picture in this month.
- LiuqiNg's IU. sorry lady. i couldnt make it on that day.

April
- became Sunway's student ambassador for their Learning Links programme. earned myself 6 hours of community service.
- assignments, assignments and MORE assignments.

May
- ISU killed me.
- CIMP Talent Night. i really enjoyed myself attending it.
- often having sleepless nights.
- preperations for final exam.
- class parties. and photo taking too.
- last minute studying trying to cramp everything into my small little brain.
- final exam.
- the birth of my bloggie.

June
- holiday!!!... for nine weeks... wanted to work and earn some money but somehow tak jadi...
- world cup season?...

July
- college resume. second sememster.
- got so sesat and nearly lost my way around the Monash building.
- Digi did some promotion with those freaky and scary human beings in costumes. i hate it.
- took my driving test and i came home with a pass and a fail.

August
- retake my driving test and i passed. i'm finally got my license.
- lotsa presentations and assignments.
- i celebrated Merdeka day at home over the phone. i was on the phone when everyone was busy countdown-ing at wherever they are.
- i-cant-remember

September
- it was the ramadhan month. enjoy going over to the pasar ramadhan to get food.
- stressed over the amount of assignments and ISU.
- one tree hill season 4 started.

October
- oh gawd. the haze.
- bake cookies. my first attempt and i succeed.
- gain interest on Fahrenheit. got hook up to that group.

November
- hectic month.
- turned 18 on the 15th.
- CIMP Talent Night a day before my burfday.
- had scavenger hunt for World Issues and my group won. weeee.....
- class parties.
- final exam.

December
- graduation day. i was sick.
- applied for universities.
- lotsa decisions to make.
- i had fun shopping!...

that's all lah... seems that the beginning of the year is more happening than the end... afterall it has been a great year... didnt regret enrolling for CIMP... thanks people for making 2006 a wonderful year... hope 2007 would be much better... may we all keep in touch after going seperate ways...

Goodbye 2006... Hello 2007!...
2006 shall be kept as memories...

long winded survey call

2006-12-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

it was yesterday evening...
after taking my bath...
there was a phone call...
i have to pick up the call as nobody was home at that time...
i was soooo lazy to pick up the phone...
but i have to lah...
scared if it would be some important calls...
so i answer lorr...
and it turn out to be some lady asking for my dad to answer a survey...
A SURVEY!!!... waste my energy running to the phone and answering it...
and because my dad was not home yet and i'm the only person...
she decided to jadikan me her mangsa since im 18 already...
i should have told her im only 12 years old...
den maybe she would decide to put down the phone instead...
so......
the lady say it would only take 5 minutes...
she say it was some marketing research stuff...
but i think she ended up dragging the whole survey longer...
and this survey is so dam weird...
usually people will only ask based on one topic...
but this one ask from A to Z...
her questions varies from house paint to shampoo to electrical goods to i dunno wat else lah...
what funny survey is she doing...
she even ask my house got car or motorcycle or not... how many... what house am i staying in... where am i staying... got astro or not... got vcd or dvd player or not... got computer or not... got laptop or not... and dunno wat else lah...
wah... i started feeling so weird...
scared if she'll come and rob my house since im giving her tooo much information...
scary ok...
where got people ask until so detail wan... survey only wert...
summore that time im home alone...
how to not scared...

when my mum came home...
i told her that about this lady calling to do survey...
she said end of the year where got people do marketing research wan...
she said i should just answer the lady i was busy and dont layan her...
but a bit the evil if i dont help the lady rite?...

i guess being toooo good has its disadvantages also...
so overall one scary experience for me?...

holidays... good or bad?

2006-12-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

as everyone know...
it's the holiday season now...
oh well... it has started like a month ago?...
or maybe later... do the counting yourself lah... i lazy...
christmas coming btw...

i come to realize that...
is holiday afterall good or bad?...
good or bad?...
u do the answering...

since it's holiday now...
my body clock gone haywire...
mornings are my sleeping time...
while the nights is when im freaking awake...
sleeping only at 4-5am and waking up about 8 hours or longer later...
isnt really a good thing rite?...
there is once i sleep only after my parents leave fer work...
my dad call me an owl fer it...
they think im crazy seeing me still awake when they are about to leave fer work...
that's not the worst situation though...
i've actually never sleep at all and still attend class the next day...
come to think of it...
there's once me and my fwen were on the phone late at night trying to keep each other awake so that we would be tired enough to sleep early the next day fer the first day of school the following day... (eh kawan... remember?...)
but then the plan failed and we had hard time trying to put oursleves to bed the next day...
that's what holidays have been doing to me...
it's been the same all the while...
i wonder what could change it...
any idea?...

on the other hand...
ive been having a little fun this days...
don't ask me what i've been doing lately...
but sometimes my day could be real boring...
especially when i had nothing to do at all...

it's already mid-december...
and guess what...
i've not decide where i wanna further my studies...
not kidding...
decided on what im planning to study...
but where?...
there are so many options...
and not to ferget each place offer different prices...
should i just complete my studies locally or should i finish my studies overseas?..
i dunno...
so far i've just check out universities through the website...
lazy to drag my ass out fer open days...
and open days usually have lotsa people and it will be soooo crowded...
i dont like...
but soon i just have to visit it and enquire those humans which would end up pointing out the advantages and not the disadvantages of their college/university...
at the moment...
im just thinking...
should i just study at the place where most of the people i know will be...
OR...
should i change environment and go back to square one... to a place where i know nobody...
so many questions rite?...
my dad aint helping though...
he's answer all the while is "It's up to you"...
what an answer to expect huh...
been doing lotsa thinking though...
hope my brain could take it and not give up toooo soon...

i got tagged!

2006-12-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name : Emily Foo Mei Yee (Yes dats my name. Dont come and stalk me after this pls)
Birth Date : 15 November 1988
Current Status : Single and still enjoying it
Eye color : Dark brown. Dat was the colour when i last look into my eyes.
Hair Color: Brown and black. My hair grow wan k.
Righty or Lefty : Righty.
Zodiac Sign : oOoo. im a Scorpio.

Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese.
Your Fears : Practically everything. Insects, darkness....
Your Weaknesses : err... Cannot make decisions?
Your Perfect Pizza : Anything without pineapples and vegetables (some pizza got vegetables wan rite? or dont have?).

Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : Can i sleep longer?
Your Bedtime : Depends.
Your most missed memory : My childhood. I dont need to make decisions at that time.

Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonald's or Burger King : Can i have both?
Single or group dates: It depends.
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton tea or Nestea: I drink both of it. but i think i prefer lipton tea.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate! I love chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Chocolate can ah?

Layer FIVE : Do you
Smoke : Nope and never. I hope.
Curse : Sometimes. When i'm really mad lah.

Layer SIX : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: No.
Gone to the mall: Yeapz. It's the sales season. Who don't go to the mall during sales?
Been on stage: Yes. Graduation!
Eaten sushi: Nopez.
Dyed your hair: In the past month, No. A few months back, Yes.

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Never tried before.
Changed who you were to fit in: Nope.

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married : I dont know. I'm only 18. Still got long way to think about marriage. Probably when my prince charming decided to leave dreamland.

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: Suit the human then can lah.
Best hair colour: Not those striking colour then boleh.
Short or long hair: Short hair!

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago : Answering Layer 7 and 8.
1 hour ago : Watching tv. while layaning my kawan online.
4.5 hours ago : Watching tv. Yes, i love my tv a lot.
1 month ago : 15 Nov? My Birthday! and attending classes of course (Me dont wanna get yellow card).
1 year ago : Decision making. What course? Which college?

Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: myself.
I feel: like something is wrong.
I hate: being undecided.
I hide: my emotions. Oh well, most of the time.
I miss: my kawan-kawan.
I need: money! I wanna go shopping!

Layer TWELVE : Tag 5 people
Anyone who cares to answer eleven layer of questions. 12 including this.

grad and after?...

2006-12-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

i know it's a bit the late...
but hey..
i finally graduated from CIMP...

oh well...
graduation was ok ok larr...
thought of skipping it as i was sick...
but i've already paid for the gown...
reach college... then headed to room 4.12A to collect the graduation gown...
oh gawd... the gown was huge... big and long...
it reminds me of a wicked witch looking for her victim...
Minni say it looks like Harry Porter...
after collecting the gown...
we headed to the lecture hall to get ourselves arrange alphabetically...
after waiting n waiting...
we finally headed in the hall...
wah... we went in like VIP...
got red carpet, cameras all around and so on lah...
we sat on the chairs reserved fer the graduates...
what's graduation without speeches before it...
yeah.. so have to hear about 3 speeches...
before we finally get to go on stage and collect our so-called certificate...
then it was time for another 2 more speeches...
and finally we're done...
and they played vitamin C- graduation song at the end...

after the whole graduation ceremony...
collected the real certificate and results...
didnt see my results till i reach home...
results were ok...
i did better fer second semester compared to the first semester...
should have done better during the first sem...
but oh well... it has past...
regret also no use...
at least i've tried?...
so now is time to decide where should i go next...
and continue on the long journey ahead...

that was 9th december that was so outdated...
as fer today...
went out to 1u...
watch movie, eat and jalan jalan abit...
and then go home lorr...
oh... 1utama has all those mickey deco fer christmas...
and they play disney songs all along...
fun...

tomoro's grad n im dam freaking sick now...

2006-12-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkk......
graduation is tomoro...
and this girl by the name of emily is sick...
how wonderful could it be?...

aaaaa-aaaaaa-aaaaaaa-aaaaaachooooooooo...
not just once but dunno how many time...
but im sure it's more than 10 times?...
even when im out i cant tahan sneezing...
me dont like...
me dont like to fall sick...
me hate medicine...
eventhough it comes in different shapes and sizes...
oh well i wonder who enjoys taking medicine...

my eyes are actually closing while typing this...
i juz took medicine just now...
and the medicine is making me falling asleep...
im trying to open it as wide as i could...
so that i could see the screen and what im typing...
so i shall just tahan as long as i could before i fall asleep...
so..... im off... shall type a longer entry when im healthy again...

it's over!...

2006-11-30T13:55:00.000+08:00

FINISH!...
EXAMS OVER!!!...
FINALLY EXAMS OVER!!!...
yahoo...
i'm free...
and i got class party later in the evening... or issit at night?...
dunno lah...
with my idc classmates...
im sleepy now...
so i shall take a nap before i go out...
i dowan to look like a zombie later...
so bwai bwaiz...
enjoy your day and holidays people...

2 down... 1 more to go...

2006-11-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

2 down...
1 more to go...
and i shall fly as free as a bird...
world issues... faster come and faster go...
and den freedom!!... holidays!!!... when the clock strike 1.30pm...
can't wait...

well...
i shall go off now...
shall study my ass of fer the last paper...
or maybe not... im getting lazier...
shall update tomoro if i have the time...
ciaoz...
wish me luck!...

the last day is here..

2006-11-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

it's friday... and it's the last day of classes today... as finals starts next week... classes today were mainly all class parties... no books involve... actually got... during ib... we did some last minute discussions fer exam... other class were all filled with photo taking... with friends and classmates... interesting day though... filled with lotsa memories... after this everybody will take a different path again... unless so kebetulan we landed on the same path... i hate it when it comes to an end fer something... didnt like the feeling...

yesterday we had scavenger hunt during world issues... my first time playing it in college... quite ok lah... running up and down the whole building like mad dogs only... from third floor to forth floor and then to ground floor and then to the second floor... and then up again to the forth floor and then dunno which floor summore lah... i cant remember every single bit of it... overall... great memories... we do stupid stupid stuff while trying to complete the hunt... oh... and my group won the whole thing... we collected the most points overall... and we got an achievement certificate in return for winning it...

over the week...

2006-11-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

i've got so much to write... but i scared the people who reads the blog will get bored of it... hack it lah... it's my blog anyway and i can write anything i want... rite?...

it was since wednesday... my 18th birthday... well lets start with thursday then...

on thursday...
i went to summit... with mummy and my brother... it's been ages since i step into that mall... and i really mean ages... expect to see some drastic changes in the mall... but sadly to say... the mall is still like how it used to be a few years back... the same old boring mall... reminds me of amcorp mall?... or maybe atria?... oh well back to summit... i went there to get some things done at also to have lunch... and since i have nothing to do on that day... we decide to walk around and see if we could get anything around... instead of coming home with clothes or shoes... i went home with show box sets... yeah... i got a few shows home... and i saw many more show i wanna get... i couldnt buy all i want on that day... if i were to buy all the show i want with the amount of seasons they have... it would cost a bomb... anyway mummy paid for the box sets... oh yah... and i saw this doggy in summit... not real dogs but those teddy bear dogs... those cudly ones... i saw one i like... and it's so nice to hug... the quality of it is very soft... but the one i wanted only got the small size... i wanted the medium size instead... but they dont have the same design... so i didnt get it in the end... so sad...

oh on friday... dam funny wei... happen during idc class...
the director decided to visit the class today... super tense... all the while the class will be super noisy during class... but today it's the other way round... i reach class just on time that day... needing to make a call... so being the goodie girl i went outside to call... but ah... i saw dr rosemary outside... i was like wth... how to call then... if i never call my mother won't know what time to pick me up... if i continue to stand outside the class and call what will dr rosemary do to me... so being the smart me... i went to the toilet and call instead... i faster faster call mummy and go back to class... lucky she never say anything... then during class... super quiet... everybody was so good and listen to mr chen... he was so serious summore... usually he very sarcastic wan... cannot tahan man... dam tak biasa... and on that day also... first time mengkiat take out a pencil and write notes... wah... surprising gilerr... usually i have to copy and he copy later when he feels like... thank gawd the director came in fer awhile only... after she went out... fuiyooh... everybody laugh like crazy... and the class became noisy as usuall... everybody went back to their normal routine in class after that... talk, sleep and listen?...

i cant remember what i did on saturday... probably eat, sleep, watch tv, and go out?...

sundays has been the normal last minute assignments that needed to be handed in the next day... as i recall... it has been 3 sundays in a row that i've been staying up late completing assignments... 2 sundays was spent on ISUs while yesterday was spend on world issues assignment... crazy lah wei... thank gawd... no more assignments!!!... fer year 2006 only lah... world issues urban planning project mark the last assignment i will be having in CIMP...

oh well fer today... classes were kinda boring... as this whole week will be revision week... so there's not much to do besides revising whatever we have learn... watch the apprentice during IB today... season 1... we watch the season finale... the others are just as usual... besides the one small incident that happen during IDC...

phew... a long winded entry... and a boring one rite?... anyway... gotta catch up with some homework now... so that i can go to bed early... till the next entry...

my 18th!...

2006-11-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

yay... my 18th burfday!... yeah... i'm 18... thanks to those who wished me... through phone, friendster, or whichever lah... thanks yah...

oh yah... DHL field trip cancel... so happy... i wasnt really looking forward to that field trip... the trip was to go there and see how DHL do their logistics and probably learn something from it... the trip was actually scheduled last week... but then the manager postponed the trip to this week... suppose to be going today... BUT... hehe... tak jadi pergi... ended up ms woi cancel the whole trip... so no more DHL...

talent night was yesterday... i didnt really quite enjoy the whole event... if compare with last semester, last semester was much more fun... no offence lah... but yeah... the crowd last semester was better too... the performance was so-so lah... ok ok lah... some were really entertaining...

needa study... yeah on my birthday... it's ok lah... it's the last unit test i'll be taking before the finals... so i better do my best... off to read the notes... ciaoz...

before i ferget... to those who are sitting fer SPM... ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK IN SPM!... this is your last battle in high school... and also the last exam you will be doing with your bunch of highschool mates before leaving for college...

with hearts and chicken fingers?...

2006-11-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY COMPLETED ALL THE ISU PRESENTATIONS!!!...
those presentations are not the last presentation i will be having in CIMP... i will still have presentations after this... well as expected... i wtill have some IDC presentations around after the other groups finish their ISU presentation... there's like about 4 to 5 more groups to go...

finals is getting nearer and nearer... in less than 3 weeks time... it seems pretty scary... even though i only got 3 different subjects to study and work on this semester... im actually more scared of the results i will be getting before the finals... should be getting in 2 weeks time rite?...

great... CIMP TALENT NIGHT... next week... 14th november... can't wait to go and see the performances... some of my fwenz are performing... guess besides enjoying myself i will be there to support them... oh well... after all the ISUs and assignments i guess we should have the right to enjoy for a day?... before we get back to the unwanted books and notes and study fer finals...

the week after next... it will be prom... i didnt attend last semester's prom cause of assignments... actually i wasnt even planning to attend the prom last semester... but this time should i go or not?... im still undecided... many people say should go because it's like our last semester in CIMP... and it will be fun... and summore all the assignments should be done... and dunno what other reasons they gave... but then it's on a weekday... abit the troublesome lah... me not sure lah... think think first... i shall decide when i need to...

i've watch HEART... the indonesian show... that show is really touching... it was abit boring in the middle... but towards the end it was really touching... and i like the theme song... when i got the show, there's this guy telling me that the show is very touching... and then the guy said "ini cerita boleh nangis punya"... i was like ok... so i went home and watch it with mummy since she also wanted to watch the show... and seriously can cry leh when u watch the show...

oh... have you people tried the chicken fingers or something like that from KFC... those nugget look a like but its rectangle shape... i dunno how to describe it lah... but nowadays can see it very often on tv during the KFC advertisement... so... i was curious to try it... i went to KFC and bought it... but when i eat it... it taste weird... got like fish taste... i think... some funny taste lah... then i get daddy to try it... and he ask me why got funny taste wan... he also had the same opinion with me... wonder wat taste is it... dunno whether that's the original taste or the KFC here cook it not nice... i don't like... the funny taste and smell make me don't feel like eating it...

this friday theme day... WACKY HAIR... and miss woi tell us today and ask us to make sure our hair are wacky on friday... if not she's gonna make our hair wacky... how?... i wake up also just in time to brush teeth, wash face and shower and get dress fer college... where got time to mess up my hair and make it look wacky just to escape from watever ms woi is gonna do on dat day?...

isu KILLS...

2006-11-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

isu kills... really... not the first time anyway... experienced it last sem... have been pretty stressed up completing my assignments... thank gawd i only got 2 isu this sem... ib and idc... both the presentations are scheduled next week... with idc report to be handed in next week while ib report to be handed in the week after... i'm seriously very scared of the report cause i scared i ter-plagiarize... *crossing finger*... scared i forgot to reference what is supposed to... *cross fingers again*... i scared lah... thank gawd there's no isu for world issues... but we got this so called big assignment to do which is due a week before finals... at least i don't have to pass it up so soon... still got time to do it with the group... safe my life...

on the happier side... i got my fahrenheit aka fei lun hai album already... i finally found the album... so happy...

anyway... im off... gotta continue with the assignments... till next time... ciaoz...

happy halloween!...

2006-10-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!...
may you enjoy all the spookiness today...
and i got a skeleton or was it juz a skull head kiss on my hand... ok lah... it's not a kiss... but it is drawn on my hand... because i didnt dress up halloweeny for class today as the theme day was halloween day... so miss nurse aka miss woi gave us an 'injection' in return... she got those stage blood liquid and drew it on our hands... practically the whole class didnt dress up for the theme day... i wanted to take a picture of it but it kinda smeared off... so cannot let you people see her artwork... imagine the poison sign... the head with an "X" below it... if you really wanna know how it kinda looks like...

on the other hand... i got baskin robbin ice cream again... hehe... 31% discount on the 31st... there were so many people trying to get it too when i went there... and how unlucky could i be when this guy wearing leather working shoes stepping on my poor toes... it hurts...

i'm currently hook up to the songs by fahrenhiet or also known as fei lun hai... i actually knew about them when i watch their tv special on tv during the raya break... but before that i saw the members in the show "It Started With A Kiss"... but i didnt know they were singers... their songs are nice to listen... besides that the singers in the group are adorable... but i don't seem to be able to find their album... is either their album sold out or i'm blind or they just don't like me or maybe it's not even available in malaysia yet or maybe... i don't know...

a picture of them on an advertisement

one more month of college... the final month before all of us step ahead for university... issit a great thing?... or issit not?... i dunno... it seems time passes so fast that im actually gonna finish cimp and hopefully graduating soon... anyway... final assignments and presentations piling up... wish me luckz...

snow globes?... water globes?... whatever u called it...

2006-10-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

remember the show "my girl"?... the korean show that was on 8tv before?... cannot remember?... kayz... let me refresh your mind... seol gong-chan and joo yoo-rin... the two main characters... still cannot remember?... hopefully this could help...

remember remember?... ok fine... i get to the topic... i remember in the show... and the guy got the girl those snow globes for her birthday... the snow globes were very nice... so today as i was bored... i search for snow globes... and i found this...

precious moment snow globe

disney snow globe!!!...

it's so beautiful... so nice... there's more... the disney princesses are nice... so many pretty beautiful ones... i like... can anybody tell me where can i get those... in malaysia... especially those disney characters snow globes... i remember seeing snow globes somewhere... but i forgot where i've seen them... i know they sell it everywhere... i think... but anywhere sell nice ones?...

happy raya...

2006-10-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

it's 12 plus already... to my malay buddies... SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!...

and i bake my first cookies today... err... more like yesterday... hehe... so happy... i've never touch the oven in my house... using it the first time made me soooo happy... at least i finally use other kitchen equipment besides the frying pan, pot, and the deep fryer to cook some simple food to fill up my small little tummy when i'm hungry... the process of making the cookies was filled with loads of laughter... since it was my first time baking cookies it was a bit messy... but the end result was good... i like i like... at least im happy... right?... now i got extra cookies to enjoy...

holiday!...

2006-10-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY!!!...
it's the holidays!!!...
finally!!!...

The long awaited holiday has finally arrived!... officially started yesterday after class... I finally get to enjoy my precious sleep... get to go out and enjoy without needing to worry about assignments, presentations, tests, quizzes at the moment even though i do have some waiting for me to complete it... ah hack it first... enjoy first few days of holidays first... i got 10 days of holidays... isnt that great?... oh well... everybody is on holiday too... so same same lah... we enjoy together...

One tree hill season 4 started... I said it before rite?... this season seems to be very scary… just the beginning of the season and I'm already scared to watch... with all the scary faces appearing out of no where... the flasbacks... the traumas scares to... i wonder how will the whole season be...

oh... since today is the first day of hols... I decided to stay home today and try to clean up the mess in my room... yeah... first day of holidays and I'm just staying at home... aiyoh... I've planned to sleep the whole day long today... but then I woke up so early... me actually slept in since 7 something at night the day before without eating dinner... see what a pig I am... I didn't even realize I slept that long... oh... i found something while I was arranging my cds on my cd rack...
And I found this...

yes... a cd... cd rack of course all cds lah right?... but i found a burn cd that I think it doesn't belongs to me... cause there's some songs that I don't have it in the comp and there's some I don't even know what title it is... if I accidentally took somebody's cd or the somebody accidentally put the cd together with my cds and didn't collect it back pls tell me... I very forgetful wan lah... maybe u left it with me during any of the dance practices of probably during any of the events we did together... or maybe u left it in my house and didn't take it back... the cd contains songs with just melodies and no singing... what do you call it already ah?... i forgot the word... but it's a compilation of nice songs... I guess the cd has been with me for a very long time... I feel guilty keeping things that don't belong to me without the person's information and not returning it to them... if it's yours tell me ok?...

oh yah... there was a report on newspaper talking about ipod yesterday... on malay mail... my mom told me about it so I read lorr... it's not about promoting the ipod but it's asking us not to hear it so long in a day...

the front page of the newspaper

the report about it

they say people shoudn't hear their ipod for more than 90 minutes a day on high volumes using their earphones... it will affect one's hearing if the person do so... they actually carried out a survey in US... i guess u all already know about it before this right?... anyway... believe it or not it's up to you...

tomoro's deepavali... so... to all my indian fwenz... HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!... to the others... HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!...

it's thursday...

2006-10-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

the week seems to be soooooooooooo dam freaking long... i finally finish all the presentations and test schelduled this week... lets see... 4 presentations and 1 test... having a hard time going thru all of it... nearly cannot tahan halfway...

on the other side... the weekends coming... i get to sleep as long as i like... wait... i don't think so... the oh-so-smart idc lecturer mr chen yoon loong decides to slap us with 2 presentations next week... one on monday and another on wednesday... one involves isu marks and another involves class assignment marks... crazy man... he thinks we are robot... everytime he give us presentation he said it could be done in an hour time... ask him do himself lah... if the information not correct he blame us for not doing the research properly...

besides the 2 presentation... i got an essay assignment to hand in... on the CRISIS thingy we played in class... owh no... i so hope there's an angel falling down saving my life now... not hoping for another week so much of work again... i soooooooooooo hope tomoro's a holiday and the raya holidays start next week...

i hate...

2006-10-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

dun bother reading wat im writing in this entry... i'm juz looking fer a place to express something... so i ended up using blogger to do it...

i hate it when a person conclude a situation without even knowing the truth... i hate it when people juz assume that the situation is like that and tell the whole world about it... i hate it when someone really dun noe the truth but assume thats the truth... i hate it when people assume that the story they heard is real when it isnt... i hate it when people didnt even bother asking the truth before telling the whole world about it... i hate it when people tell the wrong side of story and ended up spoiling the other person's image... i hate people who lied and say that they know wats happening but the fact is they dun even noe and ended up telling other people the wrong information... i hate people who actually know the truth but purposely tell others the different side of the story so that the fella will have a bad impression on the person they are talking about... i freaking hate it!!!... i seriously hate it!!!...

how i hope i dare to say it infront of the fella... how i hope i'm daring enough to slap the truth and everything to the person's face... once or twice i guess still can be forgiven... if it happen more than once or twice then how?... takkan continue tahan and sabar with it rite?...

anyway... this has nothing to do with my fwenz... really... it juz hit me when i was reading something juz now... and i really find it very unfair... maybe it did happen to me but at the moment i really dunno... but i guess many people do happen to experience this before rite?... hack it if you dont understand wateva its written...

it's soooo hazey...

2006-10-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

remember last year when pj got hit by the haze... and it was so bad... well... it came back again... the haze is attacking malaysia again... argh... it's soooo dam smelly... i remember last year when the haze attack oh gawd can die wan... and the haze was so bad till they have to close the school... the day they decided to do so i was actually at home sleeping... hehe... i ponteng school that day with daddy punya permission... i was practically suffocating in class the days before... what to expect lah... last year im a secondary school student mah... the classes all use fan wan... windows open big big to get wind... so when the haze melanda we get hazey, smelly wind lorr... lucky now in college they have aircond every class... so me don't need to worry breathing smelly air while studying... save my life...

i wonder wats mr shim thinking at the moment... he suddenly attack us with so much work... a CRISIS game with an essay assignment... NGO presentation... and some class work... he juz return our assignment and now he shoot us with another assignment...

i juz realize i got alot of presentation next week... ib CSR poster board presentation on monday... world issues NGO presentation on wednesday... and idc presentation on wednesday... so much work... and all involves standing in front of the class and talk... and i got a test to study next week too... owh no... hope i can survive the week...

of studies and shows?...

2006-09-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

FINAL EXAM TIME TABLE IS OUT ALREADY!!!... got it on wednesday... die case lah... so fast... last semester they only gave it like a week before?... two weeks before?... but this time it's like 2 months earlier?... scarynya... finals will be on the final week of november... on the 27th to the 30th... at least it didnt fall on my burfday like spm last year... if it did i'll have to celebrate it with my books again... dowan lerr... very sad case wan leh... my papers are only on the 29th and 30th... 2 days only and then off i fly as free as a bird!!!...

yippie... one tree hill season 4 is OUT!!!... finally... after season 3 ended in june... or was it in may?... after all the question marks in the final episode with all the pregnant and death issues finally we could know the answers... can't wait to find out whats gonna happen...

emily wants to watch movie... as in go to the cinema and watch movie... been ages since i enter the cinema... there's so many movie i wanna watch... can't remember wat was the last movie i watch oso... anybody wanna teman me go watch movie?...

after 2 weeks...

2006-09-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

omg... it's been 2 weeks since the last entry... the weeks have been quite interesting... i've been having fun... september is coming to an end and october is coming up... time passes so fast...

classes has been ok... so many assignments, quizes and tests to attend... and more coming up... not surprising... with ISUs coming up also... i really hope i have the time to sleep... after experiencing the whole ISU process last semester...

the malays are gonna start puasa-ing tomoro... eeeeek... so fun... maybe it's not fun fer the malays but it's fun fer me... puasa equals to ramadhan bazaar... and it means there will be lots of food... so fun... minus all the makcik that enjoys pushing people while buying food lah... no offence lah but sometimes it's true wert... anywayz... to my malay fwenz... SELAMAT BERPUASA!... after a month u all can raya...

everything's fine...

2006-09-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

im fine now... couldnt be mad over something fer long...

oh... yesterday was pyjamas day... as i said before cimp has theme day every friday... surprisingly there are people wearing pyjamas to college... some of them even come with pillows and teady bears... if you're thinking whether did i wear pyjamas to college... so sorry but i didnt... i wasnt even in the mood to dress up...

i've been doing a little bit of thinking this days... looking at the pictures on my board brings back loads of memories... there are pictures during high school and during cimp 1st semester... realised alot of things had change... as in during high school... the times when we used to meet up in school... and talk together on watever crap we could think of... the gossips... watever interesting story we have... the events... the outings... the camps... i seriously had fun at that time... besides the part where we were stressing up over some stupid matters... but now everything seems to be changing... everybody is seperated to different places... different schedule makes the meet-up-sessions harder... but luckily there's something call msn to keep us updated on each others life...

many things have change since 2nd semester started... i dunno why im thinking this way but i guess it's true... the difference of timetable seems to be drifting us apart... or maybe just myself... i dunno... forgive me fer thinking this way...

people always change... nobody will stay the same forever... even my brother change alot... i guess i did change too... or maybe not... maybe im still the small little girl who needs protection from other people...

i probably thing tooo much... i guess i should think less... things would be better if i think less rite?... if any of the statement above offend anyone... im sorry k?... i'm probably lost in somewhere while typing this... still looking fer the correct road to continue the journey... guess after all fantasy is better than reality?...